This is one of the best things I've read in a long time. It's not exactly saying anything new - I'm sure this sentiment will be recognizable to almost everyone - but it's saying it quite eloquently.
I'm a big believer in the power of the zeitgeist, and this quiet desperation is all over the air of the year 2025. It doesn't really have a name yet. It's not just ennui, because ennui is just boredom. The feeling of 2025 is boredom and fear and despair, all mixed together. But it doesn't seem to be entirely new:
“...and in the eyes of the people there is the failure; and in the eyes of the hungry there is a growing wrath. In the souls of the people the grapes of wrath are filling and growing heavy, growing heavy for the vintage.”
― John Steinbeck, The Grapes of Wrath
Grapes of wrath is a perfect description of the mood. But I'd says been growing to this peak for a decade or so...
This captures a form of existential dread I am sure all of us have felt. On the one hand, you have an ostensibly "good" job with great pay, benefits, etc. On the other hand, you have to _get punched in the stomach_ each day. All while knowing that there are people out there taking more abuse for likely far less pay. Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
> All while knowing that there are people out there taking more abuse for likely far less pay.
My anecdotal experience: The best jobs in my career were the medium-pay, medium-expectations jobs.
Most (but not all) of the very high paying jobs I've had also came with very high expectations. They were paying a lot of money and they knew that people didn't have many other options to get paychecks that large. Managers were compensated on performance of their teams, so they had to extract as much work as possible to get the maximum pay. They knew that they could post a job ad tomorrow with the high salary listed and it would attract hordes of qualified applicants who wanted that paycheck.
I never got to experience the golden era of certain FAANG companies where many people were making bank and few people were ever fired.
Likewise, the lowest paying jobs I've had were also terrible. They had no concept of anything other than extracting work from people for minimum pay. They kept everyone tired, demoralized, and afraid of being fired. People don't search for other jobs as much when they're constantly burned out and overwhelmed.
The sweet spot, for me, has been right in the middle. Good pay (great, relative to all professions), but not top of market pay, and reasonable expectations. Surrounded by a mix of people from different ages but with a lot of parents who have families at home. If I interview somewhere and it's nothing but mid 20s people who don't have families, I stay away because they have much worse concept of work-life balance in my experience.
I‘ve found that the „high expectations“ were acutely stressful because they were concealed: there was no way to match them. This story wonderfully expresses the dread of trying to guess what’s expected of you by an employer. Yes, a middling wage might be more sustainable when it’s compensating obvious work tasks that demographically average people can perform.
> I‘ve found that the „high expectations“ were acutely stressful because they were concealed: there was no way to match them.
That's a very good point.
I remember the first time I was in a cycle of trying to meet impossible expectations. We kept putting in a lot of effort and doing some very impressive things, but every time we got close to delivering something the goalposts would move.
After far longer than I'd like to admit, I realized that those lofty expectations weren't designed to be met. They were designed to keep us perpetually insecure. Always feeling like we needed to try a little harder. And it was working on us, at least for a couple years.
The illusion was briefly shattered when a manager gave us a goal that numerically meant that one of our vendors would have to serve us at a loss. He wanted us to negotiate a contract where they paid us to be their customer, when you added up all the factors. When we showed him, he did a pretend-angry routine and lectured us on how we should be thinking bigger all the time. We "failed" to meet that impossible expectation, to the surprise of absolutely nobody on the team. After that, it was like the team had been freed from the shackles of impossible expectations. We did our best and shrugged off the disappointed manager routine when it didn't meet the arbitrary expectations. It was interesting to watch as the manager realized his power over us had been broken, which quickly gave way to a slow-motion process of sidelining us for younger replacements who were more receptive to the disappointed manager routine.
I miss many of those coworkers, but I do not miss that job.
I strongly agree on your point about families. If a company can attract and retain parents, that is massive green flag.
If no one in management has kids, run the other way.
> Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
Who am I? Who are any of us to complain and/or fix things? The answer is: we're the only people who can. Change has to start somewhere. The best thing for people who have it worse isn't to silently suffer, it's to help ourselves by dismantling the systems under which we both suffer. We have to take every opportunity to do that, and that means even the unglamorous ones.
> If I'm not for myself, who will be? If I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when?
— Hillel
I agree we need to be the change we want to see. However taking about dismantling a system is probably going to introduce more pain (in the short and long run). For example capitalism doesn’t need dismantling, it has brought us far more good than bad. However we do need to figure out how to deal with bad actors and net negative behavior (deforestation, over fishing, ocean trash etc).
Among the problems: people refuse to consider reasonable limits.
Let's suppose that we institute an income cap and a wealth cap. For the sake of argument, we'll call that 10 million dollars a year, and 100 million dollars. All the existing taxes apply. Nothing gets treated specially: your income for the year will always be capped at 10MM, and your total wealth will be capped at 100MM. It's a 100% tax and knowingly evading it is a crime. If you hit the income limit in two different years, the mayor of your city will award you a plaque, with an optional ceremony, and if you hit the wealth limit, the governor of your state will award you a plaque.
How much pain does that inflict?
None at all.
But nearly everyone harbors some secret hope of becoming a billionaire right now, and the thought of not winning that lottery is enough to make it politically impossible to enact this tiny reform.
And if you can't make reforms, the whole thing may need to be dismantled.
> For example capitalism doesn’t need dismantling, it has brought us far more good than bad.
The question you should be asking first is, is it sustainable? If you give someone a bank account with a million in it, they can bring a lot of good to themselves by spending it profligately... but then one day it runs out.
Globalization is a big one. There are no good jobs for average people anymore, they all got moved to Mexico or China or Vietnam, etc. Tariffs can help with that if applied correctly.
> if applied correctly
Import taxes aren't going to help without serious, long-term government subsidization of those jobs.
Sure they will. US car manufacturers ship parts to Mexico where they are assembled and shipped into the US for sale. If that method now costs 25% more, they will probably move some manufacturing back home to avoid the tariff.
Apply that to all companies who ship parts to Mexico for assembly/manufacture, and it will make a difference, assuming the tariffs are high enough to make a difference in the showroom.
Here's the Gore/Perot debate pre-NAFTA. Perot seems pretty spot on in his assessment.
Deliberately making a process inefficient isn't going to fix anything.
More expensive cars means cars are going to be less in demand. Means less cars manufactured, means less jobs for people who make cars.
Also, reworking the auto manufacturing pipeline is going to take decades not days.
Maybe ask yourself if the reason nobody else in the past 30 years has enacted the recent measures of the American government is because they were stupid/lazy/greedy or if it's because they clearly don't work.
>Deliberately making a process inefficient isn't going to fix anything.
Shipping parts to Mexico to have them assembled then shipping it to the US is much less efficient than shipping the parts to the US, manufacturing in the US, then selling in the US.
>More expensive cars means cars are going to be less in demand. Means less cars manufactured, means less jobs for people who make cars.
Less jobs for Mexican labor making cars, more jobs for American labor making cars, that's the objective. It also strengthens unions by increasing headcount and making the threat of moving labor to another country much more expensive. Remember, the discussion is about the plight of the average American worker and how they've been systematically squeezed for 30+ years now due to globalization.
>Also, reworking the auto manufacturing pipeline is going to take decades not days.
Yes, more like years not decades, but ya, not sure why anyone would think it would take days. I suspect a lot of companies will try political maneuvers like waiting out Trump's term, hoping the next guy would be more sensible to their profit needs.
>Maybe ask yourself if the reason nobody else in the past 30 years has enacted the recent measures of the American government is because they were stupid/lazy/greedy or if it's because they clearly don't work.
Companies have a much higher profit margin by using Mexican labor, at the expense of US labor. Those companies also donate a lot of money to campaigns. It's pretty off brand for the Democrats under Clinton/Gore to champion moving thousands of jobs to Mexico under NAFTA. I wonder what motivated them to do that.
It may or may not work, but don't let perfect be the enemy of good. Despair of the average American has a lot of negative, long term social consequences we're currently dealing with, and it's just going to get worse.
Did you know foreign car manufacturers make cars in the US for the US market to avoid tariffs and improve efficiency? They might be on to something.
I'm not repudiating (in this thread) capitalism, per se. Only whatever system it is that's abusing OP's protagonist. If you think capitalism inevitably punches someone in the stomach, well, then yeah; you've got your work cut out for you.
If we (US) could take the crony out of our capitalism, then we'd be in a much better place.
Any job where you have to get regularly punched in the stomach is a terrible job regardless of the compensation involved. That others may have even worse jobs doesn't change that.
I actually know people who get punched regularly at their job and like it. Obviously there are boxing coaches but I also know someone who works with disabled and troubled youths (I'm not entirely clear on exactly what he does) and they all actually like their jobs. If it wasn't for low pay and potential brain trauma I would love to have a job where I get punched.
For me it's the uselessness of it that would bother me, the actual act of getting punched is neither here nor there. I mean I pay to take boxing classes and I enjoy them.
Sometimes people take such jobs to get out of a bad financial situation.
That can be a legitimate use, but one should remember that it's but a temporary thing to solve a particular problem, there should be an end date, and a way out. In particular, you should not start depending on the thicker stream of money such a job pays.
It's rare that such a job leaves the physical damage described in the story. More often it can damage you mentally: burned out, depressed, crushed by internally felt shame and guilt. This should not be discounted too easily; it can cost you a lot of plain money to get treated, to say nothing of the suffering, both yours and that of those who care about you.
The challenge is differentiating between absolute and relative judgements, and when to use each in your thought process.
It may be a terrible job in the absolute sense, but also a good job in the relative sense because it pays well and most involve gut punches.
Boxers get paid.
Not to sugar coat a rough sport with a real history of terrible concussions and their consequences, but boxers get to punch back. They’re also rewarded for dodging punches when it gets them to their clear tangible goal: winning a match. In a real sense they have a lot of control over how and when they get punched.
None of that applies to this allegory. Dodging the punch got the protagonist put on a three-punch PIP. Who knows what punching back would have led to.
Boxers get paid to fight. Totally different situation.
This is a ridiculous non sequitur.
I think that's the point.
Really? Is there no level of compensation that would make you think that getting punched was worthwhile?
There is some level of compensation where our protagonist could have retired after his first paycheck. His paycheck was very high, but not that high. He made a bad career move, despite the pay. For some people it would have been ok. Experienced fighters would know how to take the hit better. For them it would not have been such a problem. In the story it was a big problem. I would say there was probably no level of compensation that would make it worthwhile for the character, given he had to keep doing it on a daily basis indefinitely. His old job was fine. His new job let him pay off his mortgage faster but made his whole life worse. What good is all this money if one's life is suffering? If money lets you buy your way out of suffering, that's good.
When I was younger one of my favorite punchlines was "What kind of (wo)man do you think I am?! ... Oh, we've already established that, we're just negotiating price"
One not as funny that I made up was, "if we have to be whores, I'd rather be an expensive whore."
Sure. Pay me a million dollars and I'll take a punch. It would still be a terrible job, though.
Very well put. Most jobs are definitionally bad in some way. Well-paying (at least relative to the wider job market) tech jobs represent some of the better jobs available. They’re deeply frustrating, nearly any customer service job is a significantly worse experience for far less money, benefits, time off, healthcare, etc.
I had a job at S&P Global. Great pay. Great benefits. I was fucking miserable. I left, took a 50k pay cut, and have been much happier. I understand it's a privilege to be able to take a 50k pay cut, but I also lived well within my means and didn't adjust my lifestyle when I got raises. Let that be an important lesson to anyone reading this.
>Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
I am a human being with one life that is far to brief to spend it being miserable.
If you don't mind sharing, what was it that made the second job better compared to the first?
Hah I used to work there as well. I pictured this whole story taking place in 55 Water St.
Normalization of this existential dread is a direct result of the fundamental shift of power from labor to capital.
Our safety nets have been ripped away from us. Leaving us with this awful choice of working with shitty employers. In some cases, they might even hold a monopsony on labor and thus have _no choice_.
The time I have wasted at shit tier employers is lost forever. All so the rapacious capitalists could pump the stock and deliver share holder value
Farmers know about it all too well. The number of bulk buyers of agricultural products tends towards one.
Perhaps the biggest takeaway or "moral" of the story would be this:
> And let’s not even get started on you. You, who breezily engaged with any recruiter who blew smoke up your ass. You, applying and interviewing for jobs you didn’t want, then saying yes to their offers just because the compensation was higher and it felt like maybe the grass would be greener too. You, who time and time again sat around waiting for the world to tell you what you were supposed to do at every given moment, spelled out in big bright letters. Someday you will have to learn that opportunities never find you like that; historically, only punches do.
I was reading the story until that point, then it started reading me.
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Wow, this hits surprisingly close to home.
I do not feel existential fear about everything, do not take any antidepressants or anything like that... I just very rarely feel happy, or passionate about anything, at all anymore. My job just burned it all out. I felt depressed for few months, though I am not really 'depressed-stay-in-a-bed' type of person. I do live normally, I am just feeling sad and indifferent about anything.
I told my manager that I am almost done with my mortgage and he asked in return if I am planning to quit my job...
And the worst thing is that job is not bad, I would say it is quite good. Good pay, paid time off, remote... It is just so freaking pointless and stupid.
I would prefer doing anything other than working there really, today I did groceries and it felt more rewarding. Oh well, maybe I should stay in my previous project like the moral of the story tries to incline instead going for bigger pay.
I really hard relate to this. The most brutal part is that 4+ days off seems to get my brain going again. I get excited about doing things, I start having ideas for writing projects, coding projects, games, etc.
Then the 5 day weeks kick in and I become flat again.
I am not sure if it is just the nature of software jobs? The level of mental engagement and uncertainty we deal with is pretty high. Forcing yourself to do deep focused work for several hours a day every day while staring at a screen and doing remote meetings must cause some kind of schism. I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
> I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
In my experience, no.
"Coworker" is universally recognized as a slur for a reason. Think about "coworker music", etc. You go to work and pretend to care about sports or the Drake-Kendrick feud or cape movies (dude Brode Screenguy was so sick in Capeman CXXVIII) and make small talk around the office cooler. Then you go back to your desk and look like you're working. The managers are watching - it's an open office - sometimes they get up and walk around and make idle and foreboding chitchat, and sometimes you are pulled into a hey-how's-it-going that turns into a meeting on your way to the bathroom.
Sometimes I take my 9ams from home. I turn off my webcam and look at my phone. It doesn't matter. Meetings are enrichment for the ex-finance bro who likes to hear himself talk, and necessary for the other managers, most of whom struggle to read and write.
(The people in this thread who complain that the story is too long are likely in the top 50% of literacy skills for tech jobs - they're consuming written text as a hobby. Most people don't do this because they can't.)
> "Coworker" is universally recognized as a slur
...what?
> I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
In my case I think it would help a lot. I feels kind of lonely in this job too. There is no chatter or jokes, discussing news, tech meetups, nothing. Most of the day it is just 'please look at this PR' or 'Can customer have to active addresses' communication.
And I rather social person. But I can't commute because I have small kids that needs to be driven to and from kindergarten everyday. And in a small city IT does not exists so either commuting or remote work.
Not to diagnose you over the internet based on one comment... But it does sound like you are suffering from depression. It would be worth talking to a therapist if you havnt. I did when I felt similarly and it changed my life.
Maybe I am. Maybe I should.
Thing is, here, therapist are not very good.
I heard from some friends about their experiences and their friends and relatives experiences. Most of the time the solution is to take antidepressants.
Thing is, chemical solution to your life problem is not real solution. Well it helps the same as alcohol I guess. But does it solves anything actually?
Right now I am just working on something that I think would be possible to sell, or make money from. Being my own company, on my own terms and make money from it - that would help.
Maybe I will show it on HN at some point, though I am a bit afraid people telling me that I worthless.
I'd encourage you to read my reply to the sibling comment to yours.
In brief: depression is a feedback loop, because it interferes with your ability to take the actions you need to take to be less depressed. If you've been depressed for a while, that loop is probably pretty well-established. Antidepressants make the feedback weaker, and that lets you begin to work on breaking the loop.
Antidepressants don't solve your problems, and they don't make you unaware of them. They just make the problems easier to work on. They don't make you weak. They give you the ability to work on being stronger.
I did read it. I think I understand your point. If this is how I feel? I do not think so.
I mean I did pretty good job with chores around my house last summer. It was nice. It was fulfilling. Not like my job feels like. I do try to work on myself decided to go on diet probably I will try to take on some exersices once the winter is gone... etc.
It is not like I lie in bed over the weekend or play video games all the time eating chips.
Just this job... I need money to support my family but it is freaking waste of my time.
Even more when I think about my side project waiting for me to have time to work on it.
I could play some Lego with my kids and this would be more enjoyable. My job feels like crawling through barbed wire because some guy decided that just walking on pavement is not struggle enough.
Is this depression? IMHO no. But no doctor can argue with you if you say that you are feeling pain so maybe this persistent state of misery could be depression for some.
There is a misconception about antidepressants that they would make you numb or high or anything like that. Since they take a few days before really kicking in, they also do not tend to be addictive. Also, when you talk to people that go to a therapist, they might give you a bad feeling about it, since the people that are okay to talk about it are often people that are already in deeply and like to ventilate their problems or messed up life.
You can absolutely be depressed because of your circumstances. Put a gorilla in a small room with nothing to do for weeks and watch it become depressed. We've built a society that values all the wrong things, and then overworks people until they break. Therapy is great, but you can't always fix broke things by gaslighting yourself into thinking they aren't really broken.
Agree I am in the same boat as the parent comment and tried going to therapy but I felt foolish talking to the therapist. There wasn't some deep buried traumatic event that was manipulating my behavior in unseen ways, or some chemical imbalance that was altering my behavior and mood.
I just don't like my job but it pays really well and has great benefits and I am scared to face the bundle of uncertainties that come with quitting.
If you don't like doing your job, well paid or not, best is to switch jobs. Life's too short for feeling miserable in your job.
Therapy, and even psychiatric treatment like antidepressants, are not the same thing as gaslighting yourself.
When I tried an antidepressant for the first time, I thought the same thing you do. "I don't need medication! I'm sad because everything is terrible, and getting worse!". Everything was terrible. Everything was getting worse. The worst day of my life would come about a year later; I wasn't wrong that I was in very deep trouble. I was poor and getting poorer, my life had been decaying for years, and I could see that I would be out on the street very soon if my course didn't change, which was true (I found a place to go with a matter of hours left before I'd have been pitching a tent).
What I WAS wrong about was that that meant I couldn't be depressed, in the sense of "having major depressive disorder".
Antidepressants DO NOT make you happy. They don't make you ignore your problems. The day they kicked in for me, I was every bit as aware of the situation I was in as I had been when I began taking them a few weeks before. I still knew I was in deep trouble, I still had many things I wanted to change about myself. My values were not any different.
The difference, though, is that I wasn't drowning. This comic - https://www.dumbingofage.com/2016/comic/book-7/01-glower-vac... - describes my feelings almost exactly. It was like the difference between being inside a wildfire, and standing on a hilltop with a vantage point on it. The problem is still there and you still want to solve it, but you can pause, strategize, and turn the volume down enough to hear yourself. Now, in my case, it turns out I had been depressed in some form for most of my life, so this was a profound revelation to me. You mean most people's internal voices don't spend days abusing them for every small error? You can just like, go about your day and not have an internal voice telling you how worthless you are? I genuinely did not know that that was possible.
What people who "don't get it" don't realize, I think, is that major depressive disorder - the "chemical imbalance", in layperson's terms - can both occur on its own AND as a response to ongoing life stresses, in the same way that lung cancer can be genetic OR a response to toxic air. And depression is, somewhat by nature, self-sustaining once it is established: depression interferes with you doing precisely the things you'd need to do to not be depressed. Working on things you're invested in, exercising, getting social contact and support, all of these things are far harder when you're depressed than they would be if you weren't.
When you get on an antidepressant, you're not making your problems go away. You're just helping yourself interrupt the feedback loop that traps you within those problems. You still have to solve the problems, and that's why you still go to therapy. But therapy + antidepressants are more effective than therapy alone because it is far easier to apply what you learn in therapy when your mind isn't tearing itself apart with fear and pain.
Today, my depression is much better managed, because I've had a long time to learn to understand it from a position of safety. I still spiral into it sometimes. But the loops are not unbreakable now, because I'm trained to recognize them and interrupt them. Because of my time on medication, I know what part of my mind that screaming abuse comes from, and I can better separate it from myself. I'm better, on any axis you care to measure: I'm 60 pounds lighter, make ten times the income, have more experiences, am better-liked, have had more fulfilling and durable relationships, whatever. And if I had not gotten on a medication, I would've been rotting in the ground for about six years now.
(That is not to say that we don't need broader societal reforms to fix what is putting all of our brains under enough stress to cause damage. We should absolutely pursue those, and we should expect our world to get sicker until we succeed, in the same way that a polluted city should expect cancer rates to increase. But that's not mutually-exclusive with antidepressants being an extremely valuable part of individual recovery, in the same way that regulating pollution is not mutually-exclusive with treating someone's cancer.)
The casual, patent absurdity juxtaposed with the ennui of modern life at a corporate job is, in a genuine literary sense, Kafkaeque. Bravo.
That said, this also feels like something of a relic from the zero-interest-rate era when jobs like this were plentiful, before layoff fever swept the American boardroom.
I am working a job like this now. Instead of getting punched in the stomach I have to make Jira subtasks and come up with some narrative about what I'm doing in a stupid scrum meeting every morning. Easy, pays well, less physically demanding than being punched in the stomach, but not really making use of my skills, and ultimately soul-sucking in a way that previous jobs weren't. And yet who am I to complain?
Most of this can be solved with a paradigm shift. Find something you enjoy, do it the way you like to. -that- is your new job. The soul desiccating jira handjob is -therapy- to remind you how pointless life is if you don’t do something that you love. Focus your energy on appreciating your “job”, and appreciating your therapy (and your co-therapists) for making it possible for you to retain focus on your job.
Focus on making your therapy easier and making better metrics, especially at the cost of actual value. The purpose of the therapy-is- the pointlessness.
I have seen this unironically used to excellent effect, and the user was considered indispensable, since being indispensable and highly “valued” was what he focused 100 percent of his 9-5 on. Meanwhile, he was able to leave work behind once he walked out of the office, because he was not at all invested emotionally in the “therapy “ sessions.
Probably won’t work for everyone, but it’s a pretty solid pattern for accepting useless work. The important part is to have some “real” work that you -do- care about. Otherwise it’s potentially a shortcut to a high ledge.
I don't think the solution is to try to anesthetize yourself for 50% of your waking hours. Maybe we ought to change the system.
What do we change the system to though? Unfulfilling work needs to get done by someone.
True, but how much of unfulfilling work that is being done worldwide is actually needed?
We could also do a lot of things to make such work less uncomfortable. For example, why are cashiers in American supermarkets forced to stand?
If the value created by doing that work wouldn't surpass the shittiness of doing it, the work wouldn't exist. Unless workers are slaves, they clearly prefer the work over other options or not working. Otherwise they'd leave. The employer is clearly getting enough value to pay them the compensation needed for the tediousness.
If there is no upside for anyone, but only discomfort for the checkout clerks, someone might be able to disrupt the field by paying slightly less but allowing them to stand. Since that isn't happening, I assume that either
a) workers are showing the difference between revealed and stated preference
b) grocery stores are actually making more money of clerks stand
c) paying less in exchange for sitting clerks isn't possible because minimum wage
You are assuming that all economic activity is rational. One only needs to look at Bitcoin price to know otherwise.
Employer isn't actually getting any value out of making cashiers stand, and in most other countries, it is a sitting job. So far as I can tell, the only reason why US does it is because "we have always done it this way", which is also the ultimate rationale for a lot of other similar bullshit.
The workers, realistically, don't have any choice if every employer does this. They can take the work as it is, or they can starve, especially seeing how US doesn't have full-fledged welfare.
>If the value created by doing that work wouldn't surpass the shittiness of doing it, the work wouldn't exist.
Ah yes, because nobody has rent to pay or food to buy.
This Ayn Rand-level economic analysis is a joke, and is an insult to people with legitimate grievances. I hope
You have the day you deserve.
Yes, people have rent to pay. Destroying jobs because they are too tedious won't make that any easier
Perhaps robotics and artificial intelligence will propel us to star trek socialism.
But we aren’t on that track.
AI+robotics+energy is power. With real creative power you need money much less. The game changes from being a billionaire to having terawats of automation.
Without guardrails, robotics and artificial intelligence will become the primary tools of capital. Capital won’t need workers to implement their designs, and they won’t need money in the sense that they need it today, mostly to pay people to do things.
With factories to produce robots and ubiquitous artificial intelligence, there exists an opportunity for the capital class to separate itself entirely from the seething masses.
With essentially unconstrained power to create, you don’t need to buy things you want, except very special or artisanal things perhaps. You want a yacht? You build a yacht. The promise of GPAR is that you don’t need a factory. You just need more general purpose arthropod robots and the right software. They build the warehouse, they build the ways, they lay the keel, they build the ship. The fact that it might not be the most efficient way to build a yacht is immaterial.
Of course materials may need to be purchased so there will still be steelworks and other heavy industries that don’t lend themselves to small scales, but they too will be “manned” with GPAR labor, and the capital class will just be swapping tokens around among themselves. The true end to trickle down economies.
Humans will still have work in some situations, but it will be work that for some reasons robots cannot do because it is too risky, or too expensive to use automation. So humans will be limited to work that robots cannot do without risking destruction of robotic capital, or that humans can do for around the same cost as 36kw of solar electricity and $10/day of depreciation. Maybe that will cover rice and beans?
Either way, unfettered, untaxed access to effective hybrid cognitive/physical automation is not likely to be great for most humans in the long term.
We need an entirely new approach where labor is not the basis of survival if we are to realise the humanitarian potential of universal automation.
> We need an entirely new approach where labor is not the basis of survival if we are to realise the humanitarian potential of universal automation.
I think there might be a modest proposal or two floating around out there that would neatly resolve the problems as stated.
Trying to make transcendental work out of alienated labor feels a bit wet and sad.
Bingo.
It goes without saying that the physical damage of being punched in the stomach is a metaphor for the psychic damage of having your soul sucked. You can bare it for a while but it starts to add up. And, like many wounds, it CAN heal over time.
The age-old dilemma...
Less money and greater meaning, or more money and mind-numbing tedium.
I sympathize with you because on January 1st I nearly doubled my salary, but the job leaves me rather unfulfilled. I'm left substituting my hobbies and family for all meaning in my life, but it's challenging when you spend 50-55 hours a week at work.
You are the only one who cares if your job is soul-sucking or not, so you're exactly the person to complain.
This whole idea of "other people have it worse so it's rude or 'bad' for me to complain about things I don't like" is not a helpful mindset. That there are starving kids in Africa or victims of war in eastern Europe or slaves imprisoned in China doesn't make your life any better or worse. If every slave in the world was freed making those JIRA tasks would feel exactly the same so there's nothing wrong with wishing those JIRA tasks weren't quite as bad as they are.
I don't blame too many privileged tech workers who feel their soul being slowly eroded away, because working in software is one of the only decent ways to have any economic security at all anymore. Admittedly, Silicon Valley is responsible for some of this insecurity, but still.
Housing is expensive. Food is expensive. Childcare is expensive. Health insurance is expensive (even the "good" insurance, where a PPO will still gleefully deny your claims).
So you can either be well-off and miserable, but probably not destitute, or you can work at a gas station, and enjoy 30-40 years of precarity before you die of a preventable illness.
Great options.
And then people start to vote for a criminal that makes the situation worse... such a sad state of affairs.
I voted for the other one, but things were getting worse anyway, and the accelerationist in me wonders if somebody willing to say the quiet fascist stuff out loud and take a sledgehammer to the parts of the government that were actually doing anything useful is unfortunately what it will take to nudge a few more USAians out of their comfortable slow downfall mindset and into one where they actually start to organize against the uh, more-clearly-than-ever oligarchical system that they've been living under.
Either way, things are going to suck for a while. That my employer prioritizes Jira tickets over making good software seems a small price to pay for a bit of financial security (at least until Elon hacks my bank account and takes all my money, or I get thrown in prison for being a wokeness sympathizer, or whatever).
Hey, don't knock the value of what you're doing.
I spent some time at Pivotal, and then shamelessly adopted the Pivotal process at subsequent companies. One thing I took to heart is that a product manager that communicates through well-written user stories is golden. Jira is a drag but it's still fundamentally a textbox and you control what goes into that textbox.
Run wild with it! Engineers actually are counting on you.
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> Kafkaeque
Is there a name for the genre of writing that gets so, so close to magical realism without actually incorporating literal magic? Because this story is the epitome of it.
Kafkaesqueness doesn't require magical realism. It's about a sense of being powerless in the overwhelming and opaque machinations of a larger system, usually a bureaucracy.
Magical realism. The edges of any "genre" is going to be very fuzzy.
I didn't get any sense of magical realism from this story. It seemed to delve a lot into the internal thoughts and reflections of someone dealing with the absurdity of the outside world, so Kafkaesque seems the best description.
This was a fun read, and I've worked enough jobs to where this just felt like someone was stalking me.
Every job I've had has always felt like they're taking more than my time and energy: they take my "life force", as it were.
A job can really drain you, especially since as the article says, a lot of jobs are just busywork. A corporation is a machine whose goal is to spend money, and sometimes make money back too.
The massive layoffs in 2022 and 2023 in the tech world sort of exemplify this. The big tech companies had money, so they have to spend it, and the easiest way to spend money is to hire people. Whether or not they're "necessary" isn't the point, the point is that you need to do something with the money.
When the money dried up, suddenly they have tens of thousands of people whose jobs really were not necessary and so they have to fire a bunch of them. It's terrible, but it's basically the backbone of our economy, so I don't even know that it can be fixed.
> This was a fun read
It made me physically ill.
I mean yeah, I guess I meant to say it was enjoyable in the sense that I thought I am glad I read through it.
Obviously if you have any empathy, it’s also very unpleasant.
I'm only about 20% in but if anybody ever asks me "what is your day-to-day internal experience of ordinary life like?" I'm just going to point them to this.
[EDIT] Still not done but this is just getting more true the farther I go.
Yeah, this was disturbingly close to my experience at Apple.
I had a similar experience at Apple as well, except I took the punches for almost 4 years--you can take more punches when you're younger. I feel like a little bit of my soul died there.
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I had some years in my life where I could definitely relate to this, but I'm completely recovered.
I think the key is to have some part of your life that is meaningful and fulfilling and not dependent on your work situation - aka hobbies.
To relate it back to the story, there's a part where the protagonist thinks about what they've been doing with their time ("What have you been doing with the remaining 36 hours of the past workweek?") - when you're at this step, you should pick something up.
Painting, learning spanish, volunteering at the animal shelter, amateur hockey league, picking up trash at the park, writing a book, etc
If you can manage this, you'll find a new appreciation for your job. This thing that is minimal tax on your life that allows you the opportunity to hobby in the 99th percentile.
This is super difficult to do when you've just left your 7th Zoom meeting for the day and still have a mountain of project work to do, which you'll start doing right after picking up the kids from school and spend several hours tending to them. Or your weekends are spent doing everything you couldn't do during the week, except everyting takes twice as long to do because everyone else is doing the same thing.
It's ridiculous how many big corps can't accept someone working 4 days only.
Happened to a friend, a big Java shop spent 1 year looking for the perfect candidate, courted him again after they failed, and even my friend said no to them.
That doesn't always work. Maybe some people can lie to themselves that the 8+ hours they spend grinding away in some fluorescent hellhole for 40 years is fine if they can just avoid thinking about that 1/3 of their precious short time on Earth, but that doesn't work for everyone. Compartmentalizing your misery is not healthy, and it DOES eventually catch up to you. Trust me.
I'm intrigued by this exchange.
I was like GP, and worked on fulfilling side-projects for years (after family goes to bed).
Like you, I'm beginning to see that it isn't working well any more. Though I've built some very useful things for myself, being productive in this all-but-invisible manner still leaves much to be desired.
I don't know how to express this in text, but I want to say that I'm not frustrated by it in the same way that I'm not frustrated by the other things that I just-have-to-do in order to live the life I want.
For example, I'm not frustrated that I have to spend 8 hours sleeping. I simply accept that's the world I was born into, that our bodies require sleep, so I do it. I imagine you probably accept it in the same way. If we were to criticize this from a perspective of "this is a dumb design and we should change it", then maybe we would be frustrated by it.
Now when it comes to "bullshit jobs", I feel the same way. I was born into a society where some % of my job is bullshit but I can be paid for it anyway. But it really doesn't bother me that much, it's historically a great transaction, and I'm not responsible to change it (is it even a bad thing that needs to be changed? even if it's dumb that doesn't mean bad)
I simply spend some hours of my week doing this arbitrary thing, just as I do for Sleeping and Pooping. And as soon as I'm done, I put it down and go live my "real life". I've never thought - "wow 15 minutes spent pooping everyday? I'm wasting my life"
So what's the difference between the bullshit job and pooping? Well maybe there's a perception that these 2 things are different categories because 1 is designed by other humans and can therefore be changed. But I don't actually think it is changeable because it turtles down to some quirk in basic human desire. It won't work in the same way that you can't just tell people "Hey don't be curious today" or "don't be vain" or "don't be greedy".
I accept that our current iteration of society has been defined somewhat organically, much like the way our body has biologically evolved. And that I need to "poop" at the societal level.
I saw your reply a bit late, but I wanted to thank you for this mental model.
We all need to "poop" at the societal level
That is one of the more "zen" things I've read recently. Thank you!!
Reminds me of a job posting sent by a recruiter that expected candidates to seek "professional and personal hypergrowth", "keep up with an unrelenting pace", and "thrive on change". Dealing with these facets of work in moderation is all well and good. However, these and other points led me to guess that they had set up a high-pressure, possibly chaotic environment, perhaps on purpose.
I opted not to pursue the opportunity.
> However, these and other points led me to guess that they had set up a high-pressure, possibly chaotic environment, perhaps on purpose.
It's always wise to ask questions about this during the interview
In my experience, though, hyperbole in job listings is usually the product of someone in HR who doesn't know how to write job listings, so they write a bunch of vacuous words that sound good but mean nothing.
This was a compelling story for me to read, after leaving a tech job so abusive that I didn’t work full-time for five years. When you envy the cashier at the minimart for their ostensibly more straightforward work day, it’s time to resign. I appreciate that the author found humor in so many inexplicable details of typical corporate office life.
I think we've all had jobs where we were paid much more than we ever expected, that on paper looked like "dream jobs," where our acquaintances would gently rib us about how fortunate and pampered we were, yet working there we felt like an abused puppy until we finally resigned. This story really brought back that weird combination of dread and gratefulness that I simultaneously felt while working such a job.
Oh good, it's not just me.
A friend of mine developed stomach ulcers, so this isn't even that fantastical.
Before anyone jumps in to say that stress doesn't cause ulcers, only H. pylori does: stress can absolutely trigger gastritis, especially if you're predisposed for that, and chronic gastritis can very much cause ulcers :')
Hope your friend's doing okay.
They cleared up after the lay-off :(
Stress pretty much ruins your body one way or another. It was the teeth grinding that got me.
We both ended up putting more stock in family than work and it has been going well.
So, am I the only one here who was thinking "I'd take that job"? I mean I have a good job, and apparently am one of only 3 people on HN that doesn't feel abused by their FAANGNOAwhatever employer, but for 3x the pay and 1 minute of 'work' a day? Yeah, I'd take that job and do it for the next 20 years...
Its not stated explicitly as a theme, but one idea conveyed by the story is that we tend to over estimate our tolerance for abuse, while simultaneously struggling to anticipate how trauma will manifest. Of course its just a story, but you won't know for sure that you can endure it until you've really lived it.
The story pretty nicely hinted at the point that romanticizing the punch is bad. When the protagonist did finally something against the suffering he was immediately reprimanded.
And of course the absurdity of the physical abuse is a mere literary device, the heavy hitter (oof, sorry) is the emotional one. (As the story spells it out. It's cPTSD from struggling in this unfamiliar world every day, with not knowing what exactly is going to happen, not being able to connect to humans, being alone.)
Maybe the darkest aspect is how sidelined any support is. Spouse? Only mentioned as a healthcare package. An old friend? Good for telling the truth, but that did not help at all! Lots of supervisors are dicks.
Very eloquently stated.
I think socially we have mental-model of what a "good" job, or "good" life is, and this model is largely based on certain capitalistic/individualistic assumptions.
We tell ourselves that being isolated, feeling useless, feeling blamed, being punched in the stomache once doesn't really matter and aren't real problems if we get paid a lot.
So we save up a lot of money, but we aren't happy (despite insisting we should be), and ironically no amount of money can purchase back what we gave up -- a sense of purpose, respect, community, etc.
A friend once asked "What would be your ideal job if you had F-you money?" and my answer was "The field wouldn't matter that much, just a job where I had coworkers who genuinely liked and respected each other and cared about what we did." He couldn't understand me and kept repeating "No what field though, if you could choose?"
The job in the story is a stand-in for "an abusive job". The point isn't to ask the reader whether or not they'd take it, the point is that it is abusive and pointless. Like, it's not posing the question "would you take this job?" It's asking you to consider the life of someone whose job is, a priori, abusive and meaningless.
It's pretty important to add that there was a latent distress in this person all along, with a big dose of untreated mental health issues.
The protagonist mentions that their previous jobs gave the same anxiety and pointlessness. (The previous boss that was bombarding them with tickets, emails, etc. seems like a stand-in for typical micromanagers who don't respect boundaries. And the protagonist was obviously bad at saying no and standing up for themselves, etc.)
No, I'd do that in a heartbeat. There are so many things I want to do, try, read, or learn, and yet I will never have the time, because I have to work. A high end salary for a minute of pain is so much better than what I currently have to do that it's ridiculous.
Still fantastic writing, though. Just personally can't relate.
But in fact the punch is a metaphore for the feeling you can have each day that you get a glimpse of your boss, who does not care about you and provides you with busy work. And that feeling sticks the rest of the day. The try, read learn easily gets changed for staring at the tail of a dead squirrel, or at a thrashcan for that matter.
It wasn't just a minute of work though. The manager scheduled happy hours, in the office bar no less. There was an expectation that he had to be there. While the main character skipped several of these, he was nudged by Chris, the manager, to attend a coworker's farewell party. Given that the main character ultimately got PIPed for dodging a punch, it's assumed that he would get scolded somehow for not going.
> Just personally can't relate.
I would have thought the same about 10 years ago, and then ... life got interesting.
I was always going around with at least a book! How bad a punch is after all? Is it worse than tripping and falling with skis? And we still want to ski more almost immediately, right? Just work out a bit, get some protective layer, try to come up with some sustainability strategy with Chris so he doesn't punch in the same place all the time, and let's go!
... and now I can relate a lot more to the character. But after many years I read a book this year! (I mean other than this ~150 page short story. :D)
Mental health shit is insidious.
Yeah, but I'd be spending hours a day training my body to be a finely-tuned fighting machine, ready to evade any damage if I chose to quit before the day's beating.
Until I could improve my situation, every day I'd look him square in the eye with a fierceness that says:
I'M READY, LET'S DO THIS M_O_T_H_E_R_F_U_C_K_E_R !!!
Then I'd start hanging out a bit, learning what I could.
Once I bump into Chris's boss, it will just be a matter of leverage, as is the nature of all tactical domination.
Then one day Chris will show up,
and be escorted by security
into my new office,
I mean, his old office.
I'll crack my knuckles and tell him to have a seat.
You're late for your onboarding, after which legal's going to explain your situation to you.
I think I'll keep that ugly-ass sweater as a trophy. It can hang on the office wall. A reminder.
You might thrive there.
There are definitely people that thrive in such environments (like Chris).
FWIW, it's an office workplace, not MMA, so one shouldn't need to be a "finely-tuned fighting machine" to do the job.
Perhaps one can extrapolate that the author is hinting at another dark truth -- the higher up you go in the hierarchy, the more MMA-like this will be. Therefore CEOs are, by definition, distilled psychopaths (like the Felon and the Husk in the White House right now).
> You might thrive there.
Nah, I'm too easy-going for that bs. I'm a thinker, a problem-solver, but I was an athlete who trained myself pretty hard for nearly a decade of American folk-style wrestling.
My thought-train started with simply being able to be able to take the daily bunch, then my imagination just ran wild, like the excellent author of the original post. Combine that with the fact that "Chris" was obviously a psychopath, I went towards figuring out how he could learn why he chose the wrong path -- learn as gently as possible. And, as someone who has watched a lot of MMA over the years, I understand that training the entire body for combat would require more than just a shitton of situps, so the story just kind of just followed the original story's inspiration, as per my life experience.
> Perhaps one can extrapolate that the author is hinting at another dark truth -- the higher up you go in the hierarchy, the more MMA-like this will be. Therefore CEOs are, by definition, distilled psychopaths (like the Felon and the Husk in the White House right now).
Hinting or not, he paints a disturbing-enough picture of the such narcissists and their choices to not give a shit how people suffer as a result of their decisions.
If you want to learn a true story that is far, far worse, read David W. Blight's Pullitzer Prize winning 2019ish biography of Frederick Douglass. The audiobook was available as a free download from a reputable site (I forget), and my two teenagers and I listened 4-6 hours/day for 2.5 weeks (weekends off) until we made it through the entire 900+ page book. FD was an extraordinary human being who led an extraordinary life.
As a result, my kids understand the cruelty of the wealthy as best as one can without having actually gone through it themselves.
We are actually also pretty knowledgeable about WWII history (via Stephen E. Ambrose's unabridged audiobooks D-Day, Citizen Soldier, and Band of Brothers) so we are also aware of what our German kin are capable of, as are all human beings.
Peace be with you, friend.
"We gonna be alright." --Kendrick
I love these interactions on this site.
Peace to you as well, and to your family!
I mean, this was the point of the story! Doing a minute of work for way more pay sounds great, _but you're still getting punched in the stomach_. The main character actually thought about how people who are more physically able to withstand getting punched in the stomach daily would fare better at this job...as he was readying to be punched.
This might be one of the most beautiful, terrifying, and accurate takes on modern corporate life that I've read. I typically don't read things that are long-form if it's not in a physical book, but I found I couldn't stop even though I felt existential dread the entire time. This almost directly replicated some of my life experiences in my career, and I have the GERD (mis)diagnosis to show for it.
Wow, this is a long read but hits extremely close to home. I think anyone who has experienced this kind of burnout can relate - I can relate to so much of it, more than I'd like to write publicly.
I'm lucky to have a job where although my main value is tolerating a lot of disrespect and pointless abuse, I value my colleagues a lot and enjoy working with them, and my job/product/company is doing something meaningful, which offsets it quite a lot. I've also been in roles where that hasn't been true and the oppressiveness after a while is hard to put into words - particularly people like the unsympathetic bad-advice relative that thinks anyone that makes what you make shouldn't be miserable at all.
The first time I noticed I was burning out like this, at an old miserable job, was there was a part of my commute I'd been taking for 10+ years where a few weeks in February, the morning sunrise will shine in a particular way at an intersection I noticed. Then, one year, I noticed this again and in my head I was like "oh, it's February again" and kind of uneasily noted that it had only felt like a few months, not an entire year - and then the next year it happened, was even more unsettling - huge chunks of time I couldn't really piece together clearly in between the two years. The year after I got a little bit better of a job and had recovered from burnout, the "February sunlight" phenomenon stopped. It now feels like a full year in between noticing this, if I notice at all, and I'm grateful for that very small and weird win.
All I will say is, never work in compliance. You never have enough data or the data you need, because compliance is very important, but never as important as the actual job.
It's a brilliant story. I read it end to end, can empathize. Thank you for writing it.
Completely agree. +1. Very well written. Felt like a Black Mirror episode.
At times my career over the decades has felt like this.
I thought several times I wish Ben Stiller would direct an episode on a TV show somewhere about this. Like the author, he can blend grounded realism and comedy in his unique, transcendent way.
I think the stomach punching is much more creatively articulated on Severance. All of those severed workers are getting metaphorically punched in the gut constantly, so much so that they need to be severed to do the job at hand.
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> I read it end to end
That's impressive, this post was massive
TikTok user?
Proudly no
edit: this post has almost 26,000 words in it I am extremely skeptical someone reads it in its entirety I'm not sure how long that would take
I read the entire thing, it took about an hour give or take.
Why do you find that hard to believe?
it's a lot of words, I mostly engage on HN articles from other people's comments but yeah I get it, I read books but I don't spend an entire hour on a blog post someone posts. everybody has their own values I get that
I read the entire thing in one sitting. I think I assumed it was just a normal blog-post length and the scroll bar at the side was so small because the bottom had a bunch of photos or more articles or something. The story was engaging, so I just continued reading.
You're saying you come here to participate in discussions about articles you can't be bothered to read in the first place? Isn't that a little bit disingenuous?
It would be interesting if you asked random people if they'd like to sit down and read something for 45mins how many people would accept.
I obviously looked at this one and was like "nah" seeing the size of the scroll bar and I copied/pasted the words into a counter to get that 26K figure.
Anyway it doesn't matter there's nothing to win here. I'm pointing out this post is long as hell and I'm not gonna spend my time reading it.
It also probably speaks of my caliber as a tech person I have not been in a FAANG job before probably won't be, I'm just lucky to have picked this field up later in life and can get a job in it but I'm nobody noteworthy.
> It would be interesting if you asked random people if they'd like to sit down and read something for 45mins how many people would accept.
I wouldn't expect many to do so, but I absolutely wouldn't expect people who declined to do the reading to stick around for the post-reading discussion.
I did read it in its entirety, it took about 45 minutes. I found it pretty engaging.
It was about a 30 minute read. I'd suggest that you have a short attention span and are easily distracted.
That or I don't care about the subject read it
I don't care about 99.99% of Twitter posts enough to read them, but I'd certainly not call them "massive" -- in fact, much of my lack of interest in microblog posts comes from them being far too short to convey any ideas of substance.
Consider that you might indeed have a short attention span, and that there might be a lot of insights and concepts that you may be missing out on due to unwillingness to engage with long-form writing.
That's all fine. I am not a fast reader and spent 40 minutes before my spouse entered. I saw I was only at 3 quarters, that's more than where I get at in the average book I read, so still super engaging! Probably already spent the same amount on reading comments.
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It was about an hour for me, although I admittedly read it while fixing and munching on my lunch. It was very relatable, and so I felt motivated to see the protagonist to the end, whatever their fate- see if they derived alternate insights than the ones I had arrived at.
I've spent longer reading documentation late at night that ultimately would turn out to be useless to me. This actually had some plausibility of real life utility, but requires "experiencing" to derive useful benefit from.
I think I just punched myself in the stomach again.
It's a slow day, maybe took 1-2 hours. I only skimmed a bit of the end because of the excessive introspection, but otherwise a pleasant read.
it took me 20 minutes. it was a pretty easy read. i didn't think i was a fast reader ... but gemini tells me otherwise.
people read entire books you know.
i ran the text through a grade level calculator and it came out as 8th grade level, which i understand is typical for a mainstream newspaper. i guess that's why it was such a quick read.
I spent double that time and was only about 3 quarters. The read is indeed easy but the word count is much more than your average HN posted article.
Firefox reader mode estimates 132-168 minutes
I read it in two sittings, because it was getting waaay too late to finish it yesterday.
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> Chris has never once capitalized anything in any written medium. You find his commitment to the style somewhat impressive, given how difficult this is to do in our current era of predictive text and auto-correction. There was a time when you yourself typed everything that way, but the difference is that you were fourteen years old and trying to be “edgy” while writing comments on a fan-run message board about The Simpsons, and he is a supervising manager at a multinational corporation.
The TV show Severance shows the modern job and office dynamic very well.
As I read the story, I thought it would look great as a Ben Stiller-directed show or episode, maybe Black Mirror or a similar anthology.
If you like Severance's grounded absurdity, you might also like the film Corner Office with Jon Hamm.
I can never look at Wellness benefits the same again.
For someone who spent his whole career on camera, Stiller and company absolutely nailed every minute aspect office culture.
Second season is getting a bit redicoulous. But maybe it is just me.
This hits so many feels, and so... effectively. The corporate speak. The callousness. The vapid emptiness. The confusion.
The confusion - that this thing that seems like it should be excellent, isn't, and is in fact damaging - that's a sign of gaslighting, of being convinced to ignore or dismiss your own sense of reality.
When we're in these situations, we do know something's wrong, but we doubt; that it's wrong enough, that the wrongness matters, that the wrongness is worthwhile.
When you know it's wrong enough, you quit. When you know the wrongness is worthwhile, you don't have the dazed malaise. When you doubt your sense of reality, the reality you sense... crumbles.
I remember one time saying to a coworker : something is wrong. Only after I left for a place with a more 'normal' boss, I realized just how wrong it had been.
I recognized the lyrics at the beginning right away. The song is reel big fish’s say goodbye which has some other relevant lyrics
> I know, you feel like a whore
Working for a dream that isn't even yours
Pleasing everybody but yourself
Would you rather be, somewhere else with someone else?
When casually-inflicted trauma and indifference to using you effectively, let alone your needs as a human being, are a constant, while other responsibilities come and go and are taken less seriously, it feels like the core of the job.
Working a soul-sucking but cushy corporate job is not trauma.
It's duck-typed
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Bold move to put this next to one's resume.
I raise you { Chris's resume, a stack of photocopies of my ass, and another of Chris's resumes }.
I feel like I just read The Catcher In the Rye, but for middle aged developers. It was fantastic.
What a metaphor. Beautifully written.
This article reminds me of a tidbit about the VOC (Dutch East India Company):
"There was an extraordinarily high mortality rate among employees of the VOC due to shipwrecks, illnesses such as scurvy and dysentery, and clashes with rival trading companies and pirates. The VOC 'consumed' approximately 4,000 people per year." [1]
[1] Zanden (1993) The rise and decline of Holland's economy : merchant capitalism and the labour market
I couldn't finish reading this because of the intimately familiar existential nausea it induces, so I scrolled rapidly through it only stopping to observe that it touches on both psychiatry and unemployment in ways that made me glad I hadn't continued reading.
Frankly, this should be mandatory reading for everyone I've ever worked for.
Edit: Yeah, wow, this is more depressing than Ted Chiang's Exhalation[1].
For more in this vein, but with an erotic cyberpunk theme, play the interactive novel Secretary[2].
Edit 2: Perhaps the antidote to this malaise is a re-read of Hexing the Technical Interview[3].
absolutely did not expect to run across secretary on hn. although I'm not sure that was supposed to be a horror game as such
Yes, I've shocked myself by referencing it, but if it's not your fetish, it is blackmail, abuse, and non-consensual body modification. It's somebody's literal nightmare.
“The seat at the head of the table remains undisturbed, perhaps reserved for Business Elijah.“
What a reference! Probably my favorite line of the story.
I’ve never been good with twiddling my fingers at work. It’s a strange anxiety when you see others go, “yeah, I’m fine with this.”
I'd recommend anyone who liked the "perspective character experiencing mental illness" aspects of this check out Atwood's Surfacing.
Anyone else feel that they cannot relate to the premise of this essay in any way?
I mean I'd rather be on a road trip with my kids, but my work is generally pleasant outside infrequent periods of high stress.
Lots of the details hit for me (the lifelong habits from marching band, moments alone of feeling a little actually-crazy, being terrible at remembering names well past the point where you feel like you should have gotten good at that, the conference room lights shutting off and awkwardly standing to make them come back on, trying not to look as idle and bored as you are).
It's mostly about big-corp life, though—my time with startups and little agencies and such didn't much resemble this, day to day, but still had some of that "why the fuck are people paying me to do this?" factor, like having finished projects cancelled without ever being released due to corporate politics or because it turns out a client was only paying us build a product as a BATNA for some acquisition negotiation and they weren't really planning on using it except as a bargaining chip, or having clients (or your own startup leaders...) assign you projects that you're 100% certain are a bad idea that's never going anywhere (and sure enough, you get it done, and it flops, for exactly the reasons you could have told them it would on day 1).
Like, 80+% of the work I've ever been paid to do has been kinda pointless except to drive the gears on some abstract large-scale money-making machine that randomly sometimes produces returns but mostly just makes everyone do a bunch of work that at least someone involved already knows isn't valuable, at least not for any straightforward reasons, but everyone has to do anyway to keep the gears turning.
Feeling lost in a large org, the awkwardness of being new at a large office and of kinda clinging to the very-few people whose names you can remember, being told you're doing well and being paid great while kinda feeling like you're just coasting along and money's showing up in your account for no good reason and because that's just how your stumbling-through-life path has worked out, for whatever reason, but why should that continue for another day and OMG what will I do if people figure out they could just not do a bunch of this stuff and nothing bad would happen and they'd save money and I'd be out of a job and what else do I even know how to do and is this current too-easy gig making me soft and messing me up for future employment (but they're all kinda like that...)—very relatable.
I suppose I was reacting mostly to the "my job is so bad it is akin to being physically assaulted"
It is interesting to hear how your perspective resonates with the essay, I was mostly wondering how universal that resonance is.
Working at Microsoft, my final task was to write a monitoring and keepalive subsystem for an API that aggregated monitoring dashboards.
This is absolutely how that feels. With the exception of my boss reneging on promised expenses and the magical realism elements: I came in, did scrum, said everything was fine, then fucked around on factorio because I could be interrupted at any time, with a 5 minute SLA target, but often days passed between these events. Don’t worry, I had tons of recommendation panels to advise on steering committees to sit silently on. It’s… it’s this, you have nothing to do and all the time to do it in, paid (in my case) primarily to not work somewhere else.
I never even learned the names of the products the dashboards monitored.
I think that's more metaphorical—unpleasant but easy, unclear what benefit it's providing, somehow leaves you out-of-sorts the whole week so the days slip away even though, when you look at it, there's not good reason for that (making you feel even worse). And getting punched is bad, but is it that bad? Just one punch a day, and in the stomach? It's degrading, but what isn't, and it's not like they're making you feel bad about it, it's just how things are. And the pay is so good. Subjectively you're miserable but objectively you shouldn't be, which makes you more miserable.
Meanwhile you feel like an imposter, but everything else the others are doing also looks kinda-fake but you're never quite sure if it is and everyone else is just playing along, or if you're the odd man out and just don't get why all that stuff is useful because you're too dumb, and are just lucky nobody's yet noticed that you're not doing anything useful.
Right -- I mean the misery at work is what I cannot relate to.
Furthermore, if the best way to support my family and to live my non-professional life is to take a punch in the stomach each morning, I think I'd find a way to deal with it?
Yeah, the counter-point to this is something like Yates' Revolutionary Road—you're not as special as you think, you definitely don't have the ambition to back up the way you think your life should look and probably not enough to make anything of it even if you were dropped into that situation for free, most of your misery is because you think you should have something else, and hey, look around—of course you don't like your job, that's the deal, and the more "nice life" you want the less you'll like it, and that accidental-success you're seeing there without even trying is something you should be leaning into rather than being repulsed by.
In short, being a little clever just means you can live normal life on easy mode and you shouldn't feel bad about that, and wanting something more meaningful or glamorous or romantic without actively putting in the work to make that happen and accepting the sacrifices that come with it is just you making yourself miserable for no good reason.
(And of course if you're in the throes of that sort of a mood, being familiar with the above perspective just makes it worse, even as it offers a way out to acceptance of a life as an ordinary schlub who doesn't have things too hard, LOL)
[EDIT] I'm nearing the end and I think, to this piece's credit, some of this criticism of the perspective character's ("your") mindset is present as both text and subtext, plus a good deal of the darker thoughts and moments we're clearly to take as the output of a mind that's unwell and trying to square external reality, perceived un-reality of their situation, a certain awareness of their own privilege, plus the inescapable fact that they simply are not doing OK and are aware that they aren't and also aware that they should be and everyone else seems to be—rather than taking them as something the author intends for us to take as big-T or objectively True just because the perspective character is presenting these thoughts to us.
Exactly what I feel about my current job.
I'm sure it's not universal, but I bet a lot of HN readers have at least had one job in the past where they were 1. paid very well, but 2. their day-to-day of work felt metaphorically like a daily punch in the stomach. I certainly have, and it took me 4 years (the full stock vesting period, LOL) to break away from it.
Lots of people (including me) have gotten burnt out from a job that should be a dream job, yet somehow manages to inflict so much mental pain that you have trouble getting up from bed.
I don’t resonate with the “my job is bullshit” parts of the story, but I feel like the story does an excellent job of describing how burnout feels. Each day is physically painful and it starts taking an increasing toll both physically and mentally to show up to work.
Yeah, I'm with you on that. I'm in a profession that I chose because I was interested in it and I'm at an employer I chose because I was interested in what they do.
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Yeah, I had the same reaction.
There are well paid corporate jobs that feel like a punch in the stomach every day. Luckily they did not cross your path. It can happen very quickly though, for example the company you work for gets bought by another one with different company culture or simply your boss got switched to a narcissist.
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This is easily my favorite read of this year
The protagonist had read a detailed job description, had had a call with the recruiter, then an 180 minute interview marathon that ostensibly went absolutely stellar, then another one-to-one interview with Chris - and only at the very end of it all he gets to know that the position is actually about nothing else than being punched in the gut.
Not sure if plot hole or even deeper metaphor.
You never had a job like this I guess. They hire someone with a particular set of skills because it makes some metric somewhere look right, and then they use you for something that uses none of those skills, at all. The weird part is that they even put the real job in the listing.
I don't see a plot hole, it is just a twist that can happen in real life. You thought you landed the dreamjob after which you learnt that the interview was a big charade for a busywork job to keep up the pseudo statistics/metrics of a narcissistic boss.
isn't it about worthless leetcode interviews?
Honoré de Balzac has a great bit about cashiers in Melmoth reconciled, basically explaining that it's a useless job that stems from a lack of trust (meanwhile the cashier becomes a trustee, which is ironic as if he had ambition he could just leave with the money). I have no idea how good the english translation is, but there's much better literature about bullshit jobs than this.
Ambition may be cut short by a stay with a chain gang and a yellow passport
I did not expect to spend two hours reading a novella submarined into blog post as I was going to bed, but by God, it was totally worth it. This beautifully captured what some of my jobs felt like. Well, well done.
This was an excellent read. Thank you.
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Professional boxers, MMA fighters etc must get punched in the stomach most days they train and by experts. I would think getting punched every day by an amateur would be survivable.
And for some unfortunates, this is their school life.
I did landscaping in Atlanta with the business owner, whose college-attending son and friends would sometimes fight each other for fun.
"Good Sir, I must politely decline your generous invitation."
this sentence caught me..
> None of what you’ve been saying to people over the course of your career has been a joke.
But seems, most did take it as such.. or pretended..
> as you mentally replayed your time at the company.
and this one.. still hurts.
The guy was piped for dodging the abuse once, but what's more impressive is that it really does happen.
A lot (most ?) people do jobs they don't enjoy to make ends meet, figuratively punched in the stomach yet without the luxury of being highly paid.
The author calls this out too.
> relieving about the days when he wasn’t physically right there. He still spewed emails and instant messages and ticket comments and video calls, but the physical distance was, you know, nice.
> You notice, not even a month into this engagement, that you resent the regularity with which you are forced to interact with your supervisor.
This is very relatable for some reason. I don't hate anyone I work with, but them being physically gone sends a wave of relief over me. Even if it's just for 15 minutes, being in an empty room with no one around really helps me focus and reduces stress.
I don't understand what this is supposed to be a metaphor for.
Bullshit / Pointless jobs ? Most are definitely not physically demanding. Meanwhile, our devices run on metals mined by 12 year old kids.
Toxic bosses ? They probably don't act in the open. And they don't pay well.
Lack of workplace regulation ? Your continent democratically decided that workplace regulations were bad, so it should be a "gleeful" metaphor ?
Bad job market ? Then the guy would be accepting a job where he gets punched AND badly paid. But that's not metaphorical: that's a lot of real life jobs.
So I'm missing something here.
Perhaps your work experience hasn't been VC funded tech firms with inexperienced managers and cargo cult dev processes.
Especially you need to be able to understand the main bit about not needing to do anything at all after daily standup, err I mean punch in the stomach. (because likely the work will be thrown away soon, or the company will pivot.) and then the pre-climax (there's a name for this in plot development but I don't know it), the perf review. and finally the firing. The unnamed peers used as an excuse for a single instance of not being a team player, ie not participating in a nonsense ritual. It is indeed fatal for such firms, so to that degree the firing was a correct action.
To me this is a story about big-A Agile as a disease. But there are other meanings (side messages?) that can be taken away.
Well I worked at VC funded firms, and we were sorta doing agile, and there were stand-ups that lasted 15m, and before and after the stand-ups, work happened, in the form of writing software that we then sold to paying customers.
And, yeah, not all meetings were the best use of our time, it's better to write things down, it's tricky to find out which software to write and which to throw away, we got things wrong lots of time, we wrote legacy code for ourselves, etc...
But "being punched in the stomach and then spend your day doing nothing" was not part of it.
But I guess "burning books" is not yet a thing in the USA, and yet "Farenheit 451" is still a good metaphor of "something" ?
I've never been confortable with the literary genre of "let's slide through the slippery slopes and imagine unrealistic worst case scenarios to sound smart and not really make a case about anything cause fiction".
Book burning is very much a thing there. You don't need fires to burn books.
For being some type of metaphor for life, that the character's spouse was only mentioned a handful of times in passing was decidedly odd.
That was my biggest criticism. Maybe I could have suspended my disbelief back when I was single, but now I'm thinking "my wife would be holding an intervention for me after the first day, if not sooner".
It was a bit odd. On the other hand, this story felt very close to what I feel about my job now and someone here wrote that I am probably depressed.
Does my wife know? I think she subconsciously feels that I am not entirelly OK, but I just occasionally complain. That's it. I do not talk about that's stuff much. I do not talk about my thoughts to anyone really. I just have a feeling that nobody would understand. 'You are working at home for five times the pay I am making at factory and you complain?!'. People here complaining that the story was too long and you are complaining that you are still can't relate. This whole wall of text was not enough for you to understand. How me - who is not that eloquent - could explain what I feel inside to someone that I am hanging out once every few months?
'But your wife would understand if you spend five hours to explain.' Or she would just be annoyed to listen to the same stuff, me complaining about my job again. I am tired of me complaining about my job, others would be too.
I essance, it is kind of bizarre and more felt as breaking of the third wall, a wink to the reader, but it is not something that I can't understand.
Many man going through stuff like that alone, when asked if everything is fine, for sure they will tell 'its fine' and than decide to kill themselves.
I actually didn't find this odd. I'm child-free, but one thing I've often read about/seen is how life just...disappears...once you have kids. Your time is either consumed by stomach punching, kids, or chores with very little left over.
It's possible that his spouse didn't even notice that he was slowly losing it. It's possible that his spouse _doesn't even know_ that he gets punched in the stomach for work.
That was puzzling for me also...
This reads like a more realistic version of leisuretown.com "Q.A. Confidential".
This is awesome. A reminder why I avoid working in the corporate world - or even full time.
This is art.
"I think it's important to pursue cross training opportunities for 'hit by a bus" situations and for organic, cross-pollinated efficiency. At least twice a week we should rotate puncher or punchee. Tuesdays I'll punch you, and Fridays we'll have Diane punch me. Besides, it'll keep your knuckles from getting too sore and it'll free up time on your end of week schedule to get those reports in".
This made my brain hurt. And not in a good way
Huh. I work on the 17th floor.
Can you please restock the Dr Pepper already?
that's funny, i just got out of the hospital for a case of dysphagia that turned into a perforated esophagus. small world!
Quite entertaining but could use an editor. Went as expected but the value is in being able to relate.
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I've spent time with several schizophrenics, and this is infinitely more coherent. I envy your inability to digest it.
> The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far.
— H. P. Lovecraft
Edit: Apologies; I forgot that my mind's ear had edited out the first section entirely. Skip it.
Sorry I'm not a native speaker, the way it's written makes my mind itch and want to do something else, and I can read a lot of dense crap.
But it's starts from nowhere, without context, is this fiction? Opinion? AI rambling? Why should I keep reading?
1) Yeah, it's fiction.
2) It's written a little "higher" than modern popular young-adult-influenced fiction, mostly in that it sets up tension where the reader shouldn't know what's going on, then resolves it somewhat later, and relies on the reader holding context for a sentence or two for a thought or idea or image to resolve. This used to how books even fifth graders were expected to read were written (i.e. this wouldn't have been regarded as challenging) but extreme preferences for ease-of-reading has driven shifts in fashions (as publishers desperately seek a market in a world where readership is already very low and still declining) and now lots of folks find once-easy works of fiction "hard" (even, and perhaps especially, native speakers) simply due to rarely encountering fiction that's not, as it were, pre-chewed, so not exercising those reading skills.
3) It's written in second-person, which is a bit unusual. (First-person also used to be rare, but has become common because young readers find it easier, and it is now taking over popular fiction—I expect narrative perspectives other than first-person are the next thing that will be regarded as "difficult" by the folks just becoming adults now, and know for a fact that many current teens and tweens are expressing that to teachers, that they find reading narratives in 3rd person difficult and so mostly just... don't read those)
[EDIT] I'm not asserting that 2 or 3 are the reasons you specifically are having trouble with it, but pointing out a couple observations about it that might be reasons someone would have trouble with it. There could be others.
Well put. And second person is indeed unusual, to the point where it was quickly obvious that it wasn't some sort of LLM.
It's kind of fascinating, when I think about it. This artwork does something I've also seen the GenX novelist Douglas Coupland do to striking effect: set up a vicarious mental state, through seemingly tedious narrative, to produce a state of mind which is then played upon for artistic purposes, modulating this state of mind to cause feelings.
Coupland repeatedly does that by setting up thematic points without stating them, and then resolving not the surface details but the theme with a conclusion that targets the theme rather than the surface plot.
The author here plays on the theme of meaninglessness, and then more or less makes a plea for meaningfulness at the end. It's pretty straightforward, except there seem to be a lot of people unable to experience a narrative at all, and so they're looking for 'the answer' and unable to experience the narrative in a human way. (not that you're required to have this particular human experience… but the whole point is to have this described experience, without having it)
Pretty sure anybody who's frustrated by this would have an even harder time with Douglas Coupland's biggest works. This is really direct, theme-wise. If that's not enough to get you onboard (assuming you want to take that ride), there's a problem.
If large numbers of people in the post-LLM world end up unable to decode these sorts of artworks, that's a loss to human nature.
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Pity the rest of us who have to live in the world they make!
Your point #3 is concerning. It is almost saying that people are now unable to assume other peoples' points of view. That the skill of empathy -- in a narrow technical sense, not even loading it with positive moral associations; hell, a scammer may use their ability to take another vantage point in order to mislead -- is disappearing. That people are losing a "theory of mind". Mass solipsism. Excellent, autistic sheep, confused by the people around them.
I think it's more just saying that second person narrative is not common and so it tends to throw people off. Not that your points aren't necessarily valid, but I don't think you can get all the way there just off of second person being an uncommon literary perspective.
I'd assume FooBarBizBazz meant my aside about the rise of the (once also fairly rare, if not so rare as second) first person narrative perspective in fiction, and increasing discomfort and difficulty with the 3rd person among younger readers. I'm not sure I'd assume this coincides with a decline in empathy, but do think it's worrisome that a huge body of literature, even recent literature, is harder for these folks to access than it was for those who grew up with 3rd person as the default and anything else being a notable stylistic choice.
It's fiction in the "second person" perspective, and you should keep reading until you can empathize with the protagonist, purely because it will help you recognize abuse and/or the trappings of professionalism which cause and/or accommodate abuse.
If you aren't a native English speaker, it makes sense you would struggle with this - it requires advanced reading comprehension. It's an essay from a first-person perspective that describes the author's feeling of existential dread from corporate make-work roles. It's written in a way that suggests the writer has worked in big-tech for a while.
It's written in second-person.
Good call. I am so unused to seeing that style, that I read it as first-person.
We are at the stage where most creative experienced persons with at least a year or savings (of their expenses) should look to a self-bootstrapped AI-assisted entrepreneurship instead of a job. AI changes the game to enhance the chances of entrepreneurial success. Also, when you are working for yourself, it doesn't really feel like work.
When you write truth to power, you get downvoted and suppressed!
Better yet, has someone figured out a way to use AI to punch people in the gut? That kind of optimization would be really great for velocity.
Leveraging continuous innovation, this individual would drive team and industry advancements towards scales of operational efficiency not seen before. Their visionary contributions will redefine AI integration, ensuring access to robust, strategic, gut-punching partnerships. What a team-player.
There's a couple problems causing this negative appraisal of your 'truth'.
Firstly, there's no reason to assume 'AI-assisted' will help you in any way. You might consider that by definition that places you in a position interchangeable with any other person or indeed running the AI by itself, without you.
Secondly, 'most' creative experienced persons? As someone who's successfully-ish done the thing you're talking about, WOOF. No. In fact, I would suggest based on my experience and perspective, that a person looking to rely on AI assistance is the last person who should attempt to be entrepreneurial.
I guess go ahead if you must? If it doesn't really feel like work, it probably isn't work. If it doesn't seem meaningful because it's just chasing what an AI tells you to do, it's probably not going to stick out with any competitive distinctiveness. And if you are only doing it for yourself, you should keep your day job because that's not enough to succeed at business.
If someone doesn't yet feel substantially empowered by AI, then they just don't know how to use it very well, and also lack the imagination to do so. It's a lot more than just asking ChatGPT.
AI is not a substitute for personal effort; it's a tool for going where one struggles to go alone.
For work to not feel like work, one has to be super passionate about the goal that one is working toward, and this is never possible at a job. Most people have forgotten what it means to have a personal passion, some of which can also manifest a commercial angle.
To make a long comment short, AI is the missing glue in ikigai that brings everything together.
If only this flavor of AI wasn't being used to substitute actual work and employment at large.
Oddly, right now I'm seeing a lot of federal workers in the US talking about how they've struggled for years to get into positions where the mission they serve is deeply important to them, so much so that they'd pass over private sector work and did just that.
Just at the small cost of your soul. For some this is a small price to pay, and for others, the cost is enormous. Will AI make fundimental differences in the way life works? Look at every single stoplight that is green while no cars are waiting.
Want to ask AI, that question?
Can someone post a summary? This is written in a way that’s really hard to read.
I am seeing this kind of comment more and more here and I think it's a trend I would like to see end. That's fine if you don't want to read a long, meandering essay. I myself made it about 30% through and decided I didn't want to finish. But why would you then expend the effort to come here and ask others to do work for you? Paste it into chatgpt and ask it to summarize for you.
I read the whole thing. It's a bit of a 'moralistic' ending, but I didn't have enough of a problem with it to find that a serious fault.
Unlike that comment about 'please summarize'. I'll fault that.
Here's the problem: this is an artwork. It's there to experience something, not intrinsically to deliver an answer or data point. It's to vicariously go on a journey without literally doing the thing. That's a purpose of artworks, and one that's completely wasted on LLMs as they cannot feel or experience or have a purpose: if they did they'd be fixed (or, I supposed, punched in the digital stomach)
Summary? You don't need an LLM for that, conserve the energy. The summary is 'The ideal candidate will be punched in the stomach. And that's bad'.
It's literally in the title. I read through to see if it was 'and that's bad' or, 'and that's good', or possibly 'and that's inevitable'. I like the author better for ending up at 'that's bad' with a little bow on the end to celebrate meaningfulness, but that's not the only possible conclusion, and other conclusions would be just as artistically valid.
Quitting 30% of the way through is just as valid. You don't HAVE to take the ride just because it exists. If you're curious, averng, it's an okay story, leads up to its ending pretty well and finishes with a hopeful note. That's most of what you missed.
The only NON-valid way to engage with it would be to point an LLM at it and say 'tell me what the point is, I'm busy' because that would be failing to take the ride without even comprehending that you're failing to do so.
Living life through ChatGPT is about as useful as getting punched in the stomach. Try reading the story or ignoring it completely. There is no summary that is not as meaningless as… well, you know :)
I mean, I agree. My point is just that if you can't be bothered to read the piece but have such an insatiable curiosity to know what it was about, then do us a favor and just dump it into an llm to scratch your itch.
I find two things to be distasteful: 1) Asking others to do the work you're uninterested in doing yourself and 2) the rejection of any kind of stylistic writing as an annoying distraction. I don't know if the person I was replying to is guilty of #2 but I've seen the sentiment a lot here and more frequently than I used to. Not everything is a technical manual that needs to convey its main ideas in as straightforward a way as possible.
This article is a work of art. And I don't mean that in the highfalutin sense. But the style is meant to evoke something just as much as the words themselves. It's fine if it that doesn't work for you, but the goal was not to convey as much meaning in as few words as possible.
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This isn't notably hard to read, though... and it's stylistically fairly plain and unadorned. Down-the-middle '80s-'00s era fiction style, for literary-leaning fiction that aspired nevertheless to sell some copies.
Please cite a passage from the story which is difficult to read.
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It isn't difficult to understand, it is difficult to get through. It is difficult in the sense that crawling through mud under barbed wire is difficult: exhausting because of its unpleasantness.
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This seems to have been written with the assumption that everyone will share the writer's understanding of why it's worth reading.
>the assumption that everyone will share the writer's understanding of why it's worth reading.
There is no "why it's worth reading". They write for enjoyment, and don't care if anyone reads it.
"I write this content because I want to, and because I enjoy it. If you do too, great! And if not, also great; I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for elsewhere."
> There is no "why it's worth reading".
On the contrary--every individual reader gets to determine this. I found that it wasn't.
So you found it not worth your time to read the story, but found that it was worth your time to participate in discussions about it? That's certainly an interesting set of choices.
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Or, perhaps, the author wrote the piece to fulfill his own intrinsic motivations, and then published it on his website so that anyone who did happen to find it worth reading could do so, without necessarily expecting anything of "everyone".
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With the caveat that this is only possible with very lossy compression:
1. You land a software job which is "perfect" on almost every traditional indicator. Amazing office and amenities, incredible compensation and benefits, and no hard demands on your time... except to meekly endure some brief pain, for no particular reason, every day.
2. However it seems that neither the team nor yourself really accomplish anything, you gain no sense of social belonging, and you are literally a (very brief) punching-bag for your manager.
3. You "should" be happy, but you aren't. What's the point of it all? What are your values, and what is your worth? You start to struggle with depression. Eventually you can't take it anymore. You quit. Maybe you heal.
It's sort of like a Twilight Zone episode: You get (almost) everything you (believe that you) will be happy with, yet somehow the result is a subtle form of hell.
Maybe read some from the top, then some from the bottom. The person ultimately quit the job as was expected. The story is relatable.
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It’s a short story about corporate work and bullshit jobs, not an informative blog post. Either read it for your own enjoyment (or dread) or skip it, a summary doesn’t make much sense here.
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+1 to everyone saying the style is really hard to read. The second-person narration is part of that; but for my money the biggest problem is that the author can't decide whether the story is being told in present tense or past tense. Pick a point of view and stick with it! Either you're telling the story as it happens (present tense), or you're telling it after it happens (past tense), but you shouldn't keep switching viewpoints with every sentence. Frequently this story switches viewpoints within the same sentence. And it's not done in anything like an intentional style; my default assumption when reading something that feels like bad fanfic is that the writer simply doesn't know any better.
"This job, it was you. Every sentence, every bullet point, they all described you [...] You fire off a copy of your résumé. [...] As each employee taps their badge, the turnstile emits a pleasant green [...] You were directed to the gate at the far end, which the receptionist opens manually [...] you are absolutely speechless [...] The only words that were polite but nonspecific enough to fill the absolutely dead air that now fills the room."
Turnstiles emit green pleasantly, as Noam Chomsky might once have said.
Style points for gratuitous misuse of the word "catachresis." (Autocatachresis?)
The shifting second-person perspective feels intentional to cause disorientation. The confusion makes the story feel like a mental illness, with thoughts jumping from the past to the future but rarely present in the moment.
Definitely seems intentional. The author generally uses past tense to reflect the mental state of the protagonist, and present tense to describe events as they unfold. I found nothing jarring about the tense switches.
This is one of the best things I've read in a long time. It's not exactly saying anything new - I'm sure this sentiment will be recognizable to almost everyone - but it's saying it quite eloquently.
I'm a big believer in the power of the zeitgeist, and this quiet desperation is all over the air of the year 2025. It doesn't really have a name yet. It's not just ennui, because ennui is just boredom. The feeling of 2025 is boredom and fear and despair, all mixed together. But it doesn't seem to be entirely new:
“...and in the eyes of the people there is the failure; and in the eyes of the hungry there is a growing wrath. In the souls of the people the grapes of wrath are filling and growing heavy, growing heavy for the vintage.”
― John Steinbeck, The Grapes of Wrath
Grapes of wrath is a perfect description of the mood. But I'd says been growing to this peak for a decade or so...
This captures a form of existential dread I am sure all of us have felt. On the one hand, you have an ostensibly "good" job with great pay, benefits, etc. On the other hand, you have to _get punched in the stomach_ each day. All while knowing that there are people out there taking more abuse for likely far less pay. Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
> All while knowing that there are people out there taking more abuse for likely far less pay.
My anecdotal experience: The best jobs in my career were the medium-pay, medium-expectations jobs.
Most (but not all) of the very high paying jobs I've had also came with very high expectations. They were paying a lot of money and they knew that people didn't have many other options to get paychecks that large. Managers were compensated on performance of their teams, so they had to extract as much work as possible to get the maximum pay. They knew that they could post a job ad tomorrow with the high salary listed and it would attract hordes of qualified applicants who wanted that paycheck.
I never got to experience the golden era of certain FAANG companies where many people were making bank and few people were ever fired.
Likewise, the lowest paying jobs I've had were also terrible. They had no concept of anything other than extracting work from people for minimum pay. They kept everyone tired, demoralized, and afraid of being fired. People don't search for other jobs as much when they're constantly burned out and overwhelmed.
The sweet spot, for me, has been right in the middle. Good pay (great, relative to all professions), but not top of market pay, and reasonable expectations. Surrounded by a mix of people from different ages but with a lot of parents who have families at home. If I interview somewhere and it's nothing but mid 20s people who don't have families, I stay away because they have much worse concept of work-life balance in my experience.
I‘ve found that the „high expectations“ were acutely stressful because they were concealed: there was no way to match them. This story wonderfully expresses the dread of trying to guess what’s expected of you by an employer. Yes, a middling wage might be more sustainable when it’s compensating obvious work tasks that demographically average people can perform.
> I‘ve found that the „high expectations“ were acutely stressful because they were concealed: there was no way to match them.
That's a very good point.
I remember the first time I was in a cycle of trying to meet impossible expectations. We kept putting in a lot of effort and doing some very impressive things, but every time we got close to delivering something the goalposts would move.
After far longer than I'd like to admit, I realized that those lofty expectations weren't designed to be met. They were designed to keep us perpetually insecure. Always feeling like we needed to try a little harder. And it was working on us, at least for a couple years.
The illusion was briefly shattered when a manager gave us a goal that numerically meant that one of our vendors would have to serve us at a loss. He wanted us to negotiate a contract where they paid us to be their customer, when you added up all the factors. When we showed him, he did a pretend-angry routine and lectured us on how we should be thinking bigger all the time. We "failed" to meet that impossible expectation, to the surprise of absolutely nobody on the team. After that, it was like the team had been freed from the shackles of impossible expectations. We did our best and shrugged off the disappointed manager routine when it didn't meet the arbitrary expectations. It was interesting to watch as the manager realized his power over us had been broken, which quickly gave way to a slow-motion process of sidelining us for younger replacements who were more receptive to the disappointed manager routine.
I miss many of those coworkers, but I do not miss that job.
I strongly agree on your point about families. If a company can attract and retain parents, that is massive green flag.
If no one in management has kids, run the other way.
> Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
Who am I? Who are any of us to complain and/or fix things? The answer is: we're the only people who can. Change has to start somewhere. The best thing for people who have it worse isn't to silently suffer, it's to help ourselves by dismantling the systems under which we both suffer. We have to take every opportunity to do that, and that means even the unglamorous ones.
> If I'm not for myself, who will be? If I am only for myself, who am I? If not now, when? — Hillel
I agree we need to be the change we want to see. However taking about dismantling a system is probably going to introduce more pain (in the short and long run). For example capitalism doesn’t need dismantling, it has brought us far more good than bad. However we do need to figure out how to deal with bad actors and net negative behavior (deforestation, over fishing, ocean trash etc).
Among the problems: people refuse to consider reasonable limits.
Let's suppose that we institute an income cap and a wealth cap. For the sake of argument, we'll call that 10 million dollars a year, and 100 million dollars. All the existing taxes apply. Nothing gets treated specially: your income for the year will always be capped at 10MM, and your total wealth will be capped at 100MM. It's a 100% tax and knowingly evading it is a crime. If you hit the income limit in two different years, the mayor of your city will award you a plaque, with an optional ceremony, and if you hit the wealth limit, the governor of your state will award you a plaque.
How much pain does that inflict?
None at all.
But nearly everyone harbors some secret hope of becoming a billionaire right now, and the thought of not winning that lottery is enough to make it politically impossible to enact this tiny reform.
And if you can't make reforms, the whole thing may need to be dismantled.
> For example capitalism doesn’t need dismantling, it has brought us far more good than bad.
The question you should be asking first is, is it sustainable? If you give someone a bank account with a million in it, they can bring a lot of good to themselves by spending it profligately... but then one day it runs out.
Globalization is a big one. There are no good jobs for average people anymore, they all got moved to Mexico or China or Vietnam, etc. Tariffs can help with that if applied correctly.
> if applied correctly
Import taxes aren't going to help without serious, long-term government subsidization of those jobs.
Sure they will. US car manufacturers ship parts to Mexico where they are assembled and shipped into the US for sale. If that method now costs 25% more, they will probably move some manufacturing back home to avoid the tariff.
Apply that to all companies who ship parts to Mexico for assembly/manufacture, and it will make a difference, assuming the tariffs are high enough to make a difference in the showroom.
Here's the Gore/Perot debate pre-NAFTA. Perot seems pretty spot on in his assessment.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fi8OOAKuGQ
Deliberately making a process inefficient isn't going to fix anything.
More expensive cars means cars are going to be less in demand. Means less cars manufactured, means less jobs for people who make cars.
Also, reworking the auto manufacturing pipeline is going to take decades not days.
Maybe ask yourself if the reason nobody else in the past 30 years has enacted the recent measures of the American government is because they were stupid/lazy/greedy or if it's because they clearly don't work.
>Deliberately making a process inefficient isn't going to fix anything.
Shipping parts to Mexico to have them assembled then shipping it to the US is much less efficient than shipping the parts to the US, manufacturing in the US, then selling in the US.
>More expensive cars means cars are going to be less in demand. Means less cars manufactured, means less jobs for people who make cars.
Less jobs for Mexican labor making cars, more jobs for American labor making cars, that's the objective. It also strengthens unions by increasing headcount and making the threat of moving labor to another country much more expensive. Remember, the discussion is about the plight of the average American worker and how they've been systematically squeezed for 30+ years now due to globalization.
>Also, reworking the auto manufacturing pipeline is going to take decades not days.
Yes, more like years not decades, but ya, not sure why anyone would think it would take days. I suspect a lot of companies will try political maneuvers like waiting out Trump's term, hoping the next guy would be more sensible to their profit needs.
>Maybe ask yourself if the reason nobody else in the past 30 years has enacted the recent measures of the American government is because they were stupid/lazy/greedy or if it's because they clearly don't work.
Companies have a much higher profit margin by using Mexican labor, at the expense of US labor. Those companies also donate a lot of money to campaigns. It's pretty off brand for the Democrats under Clinton/Gore to champion moving thousands of jobs to Mexico under NAFTA. I wonder what motivated them to do that.
It may or may not work, but don't let perfect be the enemy of good. Despair of the average American has a lot of negative, long term social consequences we're currently dealing with, and it's just going to get worse.
Did you know foreign car manufacturers make cars in the US for the US market to avoid tariffs and improve efficiency? They might be on to something.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_automobiles_manufactur...
> capitalism doesn’t need dismantling
I'm not repudiating (in this thread) capitalism, per se. Only whatever system it is that's abusing OP's protagonist. If you think capitalism inevitably punches someone in the stomach, well, then yeah; you've got your work cut out for you.
If we (US) could take the crony out of our capitalism, then we'd be in a much better place.
Any job where you have to get regularly punched in the stomach is a terrible job regardless of the compensation involved. That others may have even worse jobs doesn't change that.
I actually know people who get punched regularly at their job and like it. Obviously there are boxing coaches but I also know someone who works with disabled and troubled youths (I'm not entirely clear on exactly what he does) and they all actually like their jobs. If it wasn't for low pay and potential brain trauma I would love to have a job where I get punched.
For me it's the uselessness of it that would bother me, the actual act of getting punched is neither here nor there. I mean I pay to take boxing classes and I enjoy them.
Sometimes people take such jobs to get out of a bad financial situation.
That can be a legitimate use, but one should remember that it's but a temporary thing to solve a particular problem, there should be an end date, and a way out. In particular, you should not start depending on the thicker stream of money such a job pays.
It's rare that such a job leaves the physical damage described in the story. More often it can damage you mentally: burned out, depressed, crushed by internally felt shame and guilt. This should not be discounted too easily; it can cost you a lot of plain money to get treated, to say nothing of the suffering, both yours and that of those who care about you.
The challenge is differentiating between absolute and relative judgements, and when to use each in your thought process.
It may be a terrible job in the absolute sense, but also a good job in the relative sense because it pays well and most involve gut punches.
Boxers get paid.
Not to sugar coat a rough sport with a real history of terrible concussions and their consequences, but boxers get to punch back. They’re also rewarded for dodging punches when it gets them to their clear tangible goal: winning a match. In a real sense they have a lot of control over how and when they get punched.
None of that applies to this allegory. Dodging the punch got the protagonist put on a three-punch PIP. Who knows what punching back would have led to.
Boxers get paid to fight. Totally different situation.
This is a ridiculous non sequitur.
I think that's the point.
Really? Is there no level of compensation that would make you think that getting punched was worthwhile?
There is some level of compensation where our protagonist could have retired after his first paycheck. His paycheck was very high, but not that high. He made a bad career move, despite the pay. For some people it would have been ok. Experienced fighters would know how to take the hit better. For them it would not have been such a problem. In the story it was a big problem. I would say there was probably no level of compensation that would make it worthwhile for the character, given he had to keep doing it on a daily basis indefinitely. His old job was fine. His new job let him pay off his mortgage faster but made his whole life worse. What good is all this money if one's life is suffering? If money lets you buy your way out of suffering, that's good.
When I was younger one of my favorite punchlines was "What kind of (wo)man do you think I am?! ... Oh, we've already established that, we're just negotiating price"
One not as funny that I made up was, "if we have to be whores, I'd rather be an expensive whore."
Sure. Pay me a million dollars and I'll take a punch. It would still be a terrible job, though.
Very well put. Most jobs are definitionally bad in some way. Well-paying (at least relative to the wider job market) tech jobs represent some of the better jobs available. They’re deeply frustrating, nearly any customer service job is a significantly worse experience for far less money, benefits, time off, healthcare, etc.
I had a job at S&P Global. Great pay. Great benefits. I was fucking miserable. I left, took a 50k pay cut, and have been much happier. I understand it's a privilege to be able to take a 50k pay cut, but I also lived well within my means and didn't adjust my lifestyle when I got raises. Let that be an important lesson to anyone reading this.
>Who are you to feel bad about your situation?
I am a human being with one life that is far to brief to spend it being miserable.
If you don't mind sharing, what was it that made the second job better compared to the first?
Hah I used to work there as well. I pictured this whole story taking place in 55 Water St.
Normalization of this existential dread is a direct result of the fundamental shift of power from labor to capital.
Our safety nets have been ripped away from us. Leaving us with this awful choice of working with shitty employers. In some cases, they might even hold a monopsony on labor and thus have _no choice_.
The time I have wasted at shit tier employers is lost forever. All so the rapacious capitalists could pump the stock and deliver share holder value
TIL: monopsony is not a typo
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Monopsony
Farmers know about it all too well. The number of bulk buyers of agricultural products tends towards one.
Perhaps the biggest takeaway or "moral" of the story would be this:
> And let’s not even get started on you. You, who breezily engaged with any recruiter who blew smoke up your ass. You, applying and interviewing for jobs you didn’t want, then saying yes to their offers just because the compensation was higher and it felt like maybe the grass would be greener too. You, who time and time again sat around waiting for the world to tell you what you were supposed to do at every given moment, spelled out in big bright letters. Someday you will have to learn that opportunities never find you like that; historically, only punches do.
I was reading the story until that point, then it started reading me.
Wow, this hits surprisingly close to home. I do not feel existential fear about everything, do not take any antidepressants or anything like that... I just very rarely feel happy, or passionate about anything, at all anymore. My job just burned it all out. I felt depressed for few months, though I am not really 'depressed-stay-in-a-bed' type of person. I do live normally, I am just feeling sad and indifferent about anything. I told my manager that I am almost done with my mortgage and he asked in return if I am planning to quit my job... And the worst thing is that job is not bad, I would say it is quite good. Good pay, paid time off, remote... It is just so freaking pointless and stupid. I would prefer doing anything other than working there really, today I did groceries and it felt more rewarding. Oh well, maybe I should stay in my previous project like the moral of the story tries to incline instead going for bigger pay.
I really hard relate to this. The most brutal part is that 4+ days off seems to get my brain going again. I get excited about doing things, I start having ideas for writing projects, coding projects, games, etc.
Then the 5 day weeks kick in and I become flat again.
I am not sure if it is just the nature of software jobs? The level of mental engagement and uncertainty we deal with is pretty high. Forcing yourself to do deep focused work for several hours a day every day while staring at a screen and doing remote meetings must cause some kind of schism. I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
> I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
In my experience, no.
"Coworker" is universally recognized as a slur for a reason. Think about "coworker music", etc. You go to work and pretend to care about sports or the Drake-Kendrick feud or cape movies (dude Brode Screenguy was so sick in Capeman CXXVIII) and make small talk around the office cooler. Then you go back to your desk and look like you're working. The managers are watching - it's an open office - sometimes they get up and walk around and make idle and foreboding chitchat, and sometimes you are pulled into a hey-how's-it-going that turns into a meeting on your way to the bathroom.
Sometimes I take my 9ams from home. I turn off my webcam and look at my phone. It doesn't matter. Meetings are enrichment for the ex-finance bro who likes to hear himself talk, and necessary for the other managers, most of whom struggle to read and write.
(The people in this thread who complain that the story is too long are likely in the top 50% of literacy skills for tech jobs - they're consuming written text as a hobby. Most people don't do this because they can't.)
> "Coworker" is universally recognized as a slur
...what?
> I love not commuting but I do wonder if working in person would help fix this.
In my case I think it would help a lot. I feels kind of lonely in this job too. There is no chatter or jokes, discussing news, tech meetups, nothing. Most of the day it is just 'please look at this PR' or 'Can customer have to active addresses' communication. And I rather social person. But I can't commute because I have small kids that needs to be driven to and from kindergarten everyday. And in a small city IT does not exists so either commuting or remote work.
Not to diagnose you over the internet based on one comment... But it does sound like you are suffering from depression. It would be worth talking to a therapist if you havnt. I did when I felt similarly and it changed my life.
Maybe I am. Maybe I should. Thing is, here, therapist are not very good. I heard from some friends about their experiences and their friends and relatives experiences. Most of the time the solution is to take antidepressants. Thing is, chemical solution to your life problem is not real solution. Well it helps the same as alcohol I guess. But does it solves anything actually? Right now I am just working on something that I think would be possible to sell, or make money from. Being my own company, on my own terms and make money from it - that would help. Maybe I will show it on HN at some point, though I am a bit afraid people telling me that I worthless.
I'd encourage you to read my reply to the sibling comment to yours.
In brief: depression is a feedback loop, because it interferes with your ability to take the actions you need to take to be less depressed. If you've been depressed for a while, that loop is probably pretty well-established. Antidepressants make the feedback weaker, and that lets you begin to work on breaking the loop.
Antidepressants don't solve your problems, and they don't make you unaware of them. They just make the problems easier to work on. They don't make you weak. They give you the ability to work on being stronger.
I did read it. I think I understand your point. If this is how I feel? I do not think so. I mean I did pretty good job with chores around my house last summer. It was nice. It was fulfilling. Not like my job feels like. I do try to work on myself decided to go on diet probably I will try to take on some exersices once the winter is gone... etc. It is not like I lie in bed over the weekend or play video games all the time eating chips. Just this job... I need money to support my family but it is freaking waste of my time. Even more when I think about my side project waiting for me to have time to work on it. I could play some Lego with my kids and this would be more enjoyable. My job feels like crawling through barbed wire because some guy decided that just walking on pavement is not struggle enough. Is this depression? IMHO no. But no doctor can argue with you if you say that you are feeling pain so maybe this persistent state of misery could be depression for some.
There is a misconception about antidepressants that they would make you numb or high or anything like that. Since they take a few days before really kicking in, they also do not tend to be addictive. Also, when you talk to people that go to a therapist, they might give you a bad feeling about it, since the people that are okay to talk about it are often people that are already in deeply and like to ventilate their problems or messed up life.
You can absolutely be depressed because of your circumstances. Put a gorilla in a small room with nothing to do for weeks and watch it become depressed. We've built a society that values all the wrong things, and then overworks people until they break. Therapy is great, but you can't always fix broke things by gaslighting yourself into thinking they aren't really broken.
Agree I am in the same boat as the parent comment and tried going to therapy but I felt foolish talking to the therapist. There wasn't some deep buried traumatic event that was manipulating my behavior in unseen ways, or some chemical imbalance that was altering my behavior and mood.
I just don't like my job but it pays really well and has great benefits and I am scared to face the bundle of uncertainties that come with quitting.
If you don't like doing your job, well paid or not, best is to switch jobs. Life's too short for feeling miserable in your job.
Therapy, and even psychiatric treatment like antidepressants, are not the same thing as gaslighting yourself.
When I tried an antidepressant for the first time, I thought the same thing you do. "I don't need medication! I'm sad because everything is terrible, and getting worse!". Everything was terrible. Everything was getting worse. The worst day of my life would come about a year later; I wasn't wrong that I was in very deep trouble. I was poor and getting poorer, my life had been decaying for years, and I could see that I would be out on the street very soon if my course didn't change, which was true (I found a place to go with a matter of hours left before I'd have been pitching a tent).
What I WAS wrong about was that that meant I couldn't be depressed, in the sense of "having major depressive disorder".
Antidepressants DO NOT make you happy. They don't make you ignore your problems. The day they kicked in for me, I was every bit as aware of the situation I was in as I had been when I began taking them a few weeks before. I still knew I was in deep trouble, I still had many things I wanted to change about myself. My values were not any different.
The difference, though, is that I wasn't drowning. This comic - https://www.dumbingofage.com/2016/comic/book-7/01-glower-vac... - describes my feelings almost exactly. It was like the difference between being inside a wildfire, and standing on a hilltop with a vantage point on it. The problem is still there and you still want to solve it, but you can pause, strategize, and turn the volume down enough to hear yourself. Now, in my case, it turns out I had been depressed in some form for most of my life, so this was a profound revelation to me. You mean most people's internal voices don't spend days abusing them for every small error? You can just like, go about your day and not have an internal voice telling you how worthless you are? I genuinely did not know that that was possible.
What people who "don't get it" don't realize, I think, is that major depressive disorder - the "chemical imbalance", in layperson's terms - can both occur on its own AND as a response to ongoing life stresses, in the same way that lung cancer can be genetic OR a response to toxic air. And depression is, somewhat by nature, self-sustaining once it is established: depression interferes with you doing precisely the things you'd need to do to not be depressed. Working on things you're invested in, exercising, getting social contact and support, all of these things are far harder when you're depressed than they would be if you weren't.
When you get on an antidepressant, you're not making your problems go away. You're just helping yourself interrupt the feedback loop that traps you within those problems. You still have to solve the problems, and that's why you still go to therapy. But therapy + antidepressants are more effective than therapy alone because it is far easier to apply what you learn in therapy when your mind isn't tearing itself apart with fear and pain.
Today, my depression is much better managed, because I've had a long time to learn to understand it from a position of safety. I still spiral into it sometimes. But the loops are not unbreakable now, because I'm trained to recognize them and interrupt them. Because of my time on medication, I know what part of my mind that screaming abuse comes from, and I can better separate it from myself. I'm better, on any axis you care to measure: I'm 60 pounds lighter, make ten times the income, have more experiences, am better-liked, have had more fulfilling and durable relationships, whatever. And if I had not gotten on a medication, I would've been rotting in the ground for about six years now.
(That is not to say that we don't need broader societal reforms to fix what is putting all of our brains under enough stress to cause damage. We should absolutely pursue those, and we should expect our world to get sicker until we succeed, in the same way that a polluted city should expect cancer rates to increase. But that's not mutually-exclusive with antidepressants being an extremely valuable part of individual recovery, in the same way that regulating pollution is not mutually-exclusive with treating someone's cancer.)
The casual, patent absurdity juxtaposed with the ennui of modern life at a corporate job is, in a genuine literary sense, Kafkaeque. Bravo.
That said, this also feels like something of a relic from the zero-interest-rate era when jobs like this were plentiful, before layoff fever swept the American boardroom.
I am working a job like this now. Instead of getting punched in the stomach I have to make Jira subtasks and come up with some narrative about what I'm doing in a stupid scrum meeting every morning. Easy, pays well, less physically demanding than being punched in the stomach, but not really making use of my skills, and ultimately soul-sucking in a way that previous jobs weren't. And yet who am I to complain?
Most of this can be solved with a paradigm shift. Find something you enjoy, do it the way you like to. -that- is your new job. The soul desiccating jira handjob is -therapy- to remind you how pointless life is if you don’t do something that you love. Focus your energy on appreciating your “job”, and appreciating your therapy (and your co-therapists) for making it possible for you to retain focus on your job.
Focus on making your therapy easier and making better metrics, especially at the cost of actual value. The purpose of the therapy-is- the pointlessness.
I have seen this unironically used to excellent effect, and the user was considered indispensable, since being indispensable and highly “valued” was what he focused 100 percent of his 9-5 on. Meanwhile, he was able to leave work behind once he walked out of the office, because he was not at all invested emotionally in the “therapy “ sessions.
Probably won’t work for everyone, but it’s a pretty solid pattern for accepting useless work. The important part is to have some “real” work that you -do- care about. Otherwise it’s potentially a shortcut to a high ledge.
I don't think the solution is to try to anesthetize yourself for 50% of your waking hours. Maybe we ought to change the system.
What do we change the system to though? Unfulfilling work needs to get done by someone.
True, but how much of unfulfilling work that is being done worldwide is actually needed?
We could also do a lot of things to make such work less uncomfortable. For example, why are cashiers in American supermarkets forced to stand?
If the value created by doing that work wouldn't surpass the shittiness of doing it, the work wouldn't exist. Unless workers are slaves, they clearly prefer the work over other options or not working. Otherwise they'd leave. The employer is clearly getting enough value to pay them the compensation needed for the tediousness.
If there is no upside for anyone, but only discomfort for the checkout clerks, someone might be able to disrupt the field by paying slightly less but allowing them to stand. Since that isn't happening, I assume that either a) workers are showing the difference between revealed and stated preference b) grocery stores are actually making more money of clerks stand c) paying less in exchange for sitting clerks isn't possible because minimum wage
You are assuming that all economic activity is rational. One only needs to look at Bitcoin price to know otherwise.
Employer isn't actually getting any value out of making cashiers stand, and in most other countries, it is a sitting job. So far as I can tell, the only reason why US does it is because "we have always done it this way", which is also the ultimate rationale for a lot of other similar bullshit.
The workers, realistically, don't have any choice if every employer does this. They can take the work as it is, or they can starve, especially seeing how US doesn't have full-fledged welfare.
>If the value created by doing that work wouldn't surpass the shittiness of doing it, the work wouldn't exist.
Ah yes, because nobody has rent to pay or food to buy.
This Ayn Rand-level economic analysis is a joke, and is an insult to people with legitimate grievances. I hope You have the day you deserve.
Yes, people have rent to pay. Destroying jobs because they are too tedious won't make that any easier
Perhaps robotics and artificial intelligence will propel us to star trek socialism.
But we aren’t on that track.
AI+robotics+energy is power. With real creative power you need money much less. The game changes from being a billionaire to having terawats of automation.
Without guardrails, robotics and artificial intelligence will become the primary tools of capital. Capital won’t need workers to implement their designs, and they won’t need money in the sense that they need it today, mostly to pay people to do things.
With factories to produce robots and ubiquitous artificial intelligence, there exists an opportunity for the capital class to separate itself entirely from the seething masses.
With essentially unconstrained power to create, you don’t need to buy things you want, except very special or artisanal things perhaps. You want a yacht? You build a yacht. The promise of GPAR is that you don’t need a factory. You just need more general purpose arthropod robots and the right software. They build the warehouse, they build the ways, they lay the keel, they build the ship. The fact that it might not be the most efficient way to build a yacht is immaterial.
Of course materials may need to be purchased so there will still be steelworks and other heavy industries that don’t lend themselves to small scales, but they too will be “manned” with GPAR labor, and the capital class will just be swapping tokens around among themselves. The true end to trickle down economies.
Humans will still have work in some situations, but it will be work that for some reasons robots cannot do because it is too risky, or too expensive to use automation. So humans will be limited to work that robots cannot do without risking destruction of robotic capital, or that humans can do for around the same cost as 36kw of solar electricity and $10/day of depreciation. Maybe that will cover rice and beans?
Either way, unfettered, untaxed access to effective hybrid cognitive/physical automation is not likely to be great for most humans in the long term.
We need an entirely new approach where labor is not the basis of survival if we are to realise the humanitarian potential of universal automation.
> We need an entirely new approach where labor is not the basis of survival if we are to realise the humanitarian potential of universal automation.
I think there might be a modest proposal or two floating around out there that would neatly resolve the problems as stated.
Trying to make transcendental work out of alienated labor feels a bit wet and sad.
Bingo.
It goes without saying that the physical damage of being punched in the stomach is a metaphor for the psychic damage of having your soul sucked. You can bare it for a while but it starts to add up. And, like many wounds, it CAN heal over time.
The age-old dilemma...
Less money and greater meaning, or more money and mind-numbing tedium.
I sympathize with you because on January 1st I nearly doubled my salary, but the job leaves me rather unfulfilled. I'm left substituting my hobbies and family for all meaning in my life, but it's challenging when you spend 50-55 hours a week at work.
You are the only one who cares if your job is soul-sucking or not, so you're exactly the person to complain.
This whole idea of "other people have it worse so it's rude or 'bad' for me to complain about things I don't like" is not a helpful mindset. That there are starving kids in Africa or victims of war in eastern Europe or slaves imprisoned in China doesn't make your life any better or worse. If every slave in the world was freed making those JIRA tasks would feel exactly the same so there's nothing wrong with wishing those JIRA tasks weren't quite as bad as they are.
I don't blame too many privileged tech workers who feel their soul being slowly eroded away, because working in software is one of the only decent ways to have any economic security at all anymore. Admittedly, Silicon Valley is responsible for some of this insecurity, but still.
Housing is expensive. Food is expensive. Childcare is expensive. Health insurance is expensive (even the "good" insurance, where a PPO will still gleefully deny your claims).
So you can either be well-off and miserable, but probably not destitute, or you can work at a gas station, and enjoy 30-40 years of precarity before you die of a preventable illness.
Great options.
And then people start to vote for a criminal that makes the situation worse... such a sad state of affairs.
I voted for the other one, but things were getting worse anyway, and the accelerationist in me wonders if somebody willing to say the quiet fascist stuff out loud and take a sledgehammer to the parts of the government that were actually doing anything useful is unfortunately what it will take to nudge a few more USAians out of their comfortable slow downfall mindset and into one where they actually start to organize against the uh, more-clearly-than-ever oligarchical system that they've been living under.
Either way, things are going to suck for a while. That my employer prioritizes Jira tickets over making good software seems a small price to pay for a bit of financial security (at least until Elon hacks my bank account and takes all my money, or I get thrown in prison for being a wokeness sympathizer, or whatever).
Hey, don't knock the value of what you're doing.
I spent some time at Pivotal, and then shamelessly adopted the Pivotal process at subsequent companies. One thing I took to heart is that a product manager that communicates through well-written user stories is golden. Jira is a drag but it's still fundamentally a textbox and you control what goes into that textbox.
Run wild with it! Engineers actually are counting on you.
> Kafkaeque
Is there a name for the genre of writing that gets so, so close to magical realism without actually incorporating literal magic? Because this story is the epitome of it.
Kafkaesqueness doesn't require magical realism. It's about a sense of being powerless in the overwhelming and opaque machinations of a larger system, usually a bureaucracy.
Magical realism. The edges of any "genre" is going to be very fuzzy.
Yeah maybe more specifically https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fantastique and some of the examples are not explicitly supernatural.
I didn't get any sense of magical realism from this story. It seemed to delve a lot into the internal thoughts and reflections of someone dealing with the absurdity of the outside world, so Kafkaesque seems the best description.
This was a fun read, and I've worked enough jobs to where this just felt like someone was stalking me.
Every job I've had has always felt like they're taking more than my time and energy: they take my "life force", as it were.
A job can really drain you, especially since as the article says, a lot of jobs are just busywork. A corporation is a machine whose goal is to spend money, and sometimes make money back too.
The massive layoffs in 2022 and 2023 in the tech world sort of exemplify this. The big tech companies had money, so they have to spend it, and the easiest way to spend money is to hire people. Whether or not they're "necessary" isn't the point, the point is that you need to do something with the money.
When the money dried up, suddenly they have tens of thousands of people whose jobs really were not necessary and so they have to fire a bunch of them. It's terrible, but it's basically the backbone of our economy, so I don't even know that it can be fixed.
> This was a fun read
It made me physically ill.
I mean yeah, I guess I meant to say it was enjoyable in the sense that I thought I am glad I read through it.
Obviously if you have any empathy, it’s also very unpleasant.
I'm only about 20% in but if anybody ever asks me "what is your day-to-day internal experience of ordinary life like?" I'm just going to point them to this.
[EDIT] Still not done but this is just getting more true the farther I go.
Yeah, this was disturbingly close to my experience at Apple.
I had a similar experience at Apple as well, except I took the punches for almost 4 years--you can take more punches when you're younger. I feel like a little bit of my soul died there.
I had some years in my life where I could definitely relate to this, but I'm completely recovered.
I think the key is to have some part of your life that is meaningful and fulfilling and not dependent on your work situation - aka hobbies.
To relate it back to the story, there's a part where the protagonist thinks about what they've been doing with their time ("What have you been doing with the remaining 36 hours of the past workweek?") - when you're at this step, you should pick something up.
Painting, learning spanish, volunteering at the animal shelter, amateur hockey league, picking up trash at the park, writing a book, etc
If you can manage this, you'll find a new appreciation for your job. This thing that is minimal tax on your life that allows you the opportunity to hobby in the 99th percentile.
This is super difficult to do when you've just left your 7th Zoom meeting for the day and still have a mountain of project work to do, which you'll start doing right after picking up the kids from school and spend several hours tending to them. Or your weekends are spent doing everything you couldn't do during the week, except everyting takes twice as long to do because everyone else is doing the same thing.
It's ridiculous how many big corps can't accept someone working 4 days only.
Happened to a friend, a big Java shop spent 1 year looking for the perfect candidate, courted him again after they failed, and even my friend said no to them.
That doesn't always work. Maybe some people can lie to themselves that the 8+ hours they spend grinding away in some fluorescent hellhole for 40 years is fine if they can just avoid thinking about that 1/3 of their precious short time on Earth, but that doesn't work for everyone. Compartmentalizing your misery is not healthy, and it DOES eventually catch up to you. Trust me.
I'm intrigued by this exchange.
I was like GP, and worked on fulfilling side-projects for years (after family goes to bed).
Like you, I'm beginning to see that it isn't working well any more. Though I've built some very useful things for myself, being productive in this all-but-invisible manner still leaves much to be desired.
I don't know how to express this in text, but I want to say that I'm not frustrated by it in the same way that I'm not frustrated by the other things that I just-have-to-do in order to live the life I want.
For example, I'm not frustrated that I have to spend 8 hours sleeping. I simply accept that's the world I was born into, that our bodies require sleep, so I do it. I imagine you probably accept it in the same way. If we were to criticize this from a perspective of "this is a dumb design and we should change it", then maybe we would be frustrated by it.
Now when it comes to "bullshit jobs", I feel the same way. I was born into a society where some % of my job is bullshit but I can be paid for it anyway. But it really doesn't bother me that much, it's historically a great transaction, and I'm not responsible to change it (is it even a bad thing that needs to be changed? even if it's dumb that doesn't mean bad)
I simply spend some hours of my week doing this arbitrary thing, just as I do for Sleeping and Pooping. And as soon as I'm done, I put it down and go live my "real life". I've never thought - "wow 15 minutes spent pooping everyday? I'm wasting my life"
So what's the difference between the bullshit job and pooping? Well maybe there's a perception that these 2 things are different categories because 1 is designed by other humans and can therefore be changed. But I don't actually think it is changeable because it turtles down to some quirk in basic human desire. It won't work in the same way that you can't just tell people "Hey don't be curious today" or "don't be vain" or "don't be greedy".
I accept that our current iteration of society has been defined somewhat organically, much like the way our body has biologically evolved. And that I need to "poop" at the societal level.
I saw your reply a bit late, but I wanted to thank you for this mental model.
We all need to "poop" at the societal level
That is one of the more "zen" things I've read recently. Thank you!!
Reminds me of a job posting sent by a recruiter that expected candidates to seek "professional and personal hypergrowth", "keep up with an unrelenting pace", and "thrive on change". Dealing with these facets of work in moderation is all well and good. However, these and other points led me to guess that they had set up a high-pressure, possibly chaotic environment, perhaps on purpose.
I opted not to pursue the opportunity.
> However, these and other points led me to guess that they had set up a high-pressure, possibly chaotic environment, perhaps on purpose.
It's always wise to ask questions about this during the interview
In my experience, though, hyperbole in job listings is usually the product of someone in HR who doesn't know how to write job listings, so they write a bunch of vacuous words that sound good but mean nothing.
This was a compelling story for me to read, after leaving a tech job so abusive that I didn’t work full-time for five years. When you envy the cashier at the minimart for their ostensibly more straightforward work day, it’s time to resign. I appreciate that the author found humor in so many inexplicable details of typical corporate office life.
I think we've all had jobs where we were paid much more than we ever expected, that on paper looked like "dream jobs," where our acquaintances would gently rib us about how fortunate and pampered we were, yet working there we felt like an abused puppy until we finally resigned. This story really brought back that weird combination of dread and gratefulness that I simultaneously felt while working such a job.
Oh good, it's not just me.
A friend of mine developed stomach ulcers, so this isn't even that fantastical.
Before anyone jumps in to say that stress doesn't cause ulcers, only H. pylori does: stress can absolutely trigger gastritis, especially if you're predisposed for that, and chronic gastritis can very much cause ulcers :')
Hope your friend's doing okay.
They cleared up after the lay-off :(
Stress pretty much ruins your body one way or another. It was the teeth grinding that got me.
We both ended up putting more stock in family than work and it has been going well.
So, am I the only one here who was thinking "I'd take that job"? I mean I have a good job, and apparently am one of only 3 people on HN that doesn't feel abused by their FAANGNOAwhatever employer, but for 3x the pay and 1 minute of 'work' a day? Yeah, I'd take that job and do it for the next 20 years...
Its not stated explicitly as a theme, but one idea conveyed by the story is that we tend to over estimate our tolerance for abuse, while simultaneously struggling to anticipate how trauma will manifest. Of course its just a story, but you won't know for sure that you can endure it until you've really lived it.
The story pretty nicely hinted at the point that romanticizing the punch is bad. When the protagonist did finally something against the suffering he was immediately reprimanded.
And of course the absurdity of the physical abuse is a mere literary device, the heavy hitter (oof, sorry) is the emotional one. (As the story spells it out. It's cPTSD from struggling in this unfamiliar world every day, with not knowing what exactly is going to happen, not being able to connect to humans, being alone.)
Maybe the darkest aspect is how sidelined any support is. Spouse? Only mentioned as a healthcare package. An old friend? Good for telling the truth, but that did not help at all! Lots of supervisors are dicks.
Very eloquently stated.
I think socially we have mental-model of what a "good" job, or "good" life is, and this model is largely based on certain capitalistic/individualistic assumptions.
We tell ourselves that being isolated, feeling useless, feeling blamed, being punched in the stomache once doesn't really matter and aren't real problems if we get paid a lot.
So we save up a lot of money, but we aren't happy (despite insisting we should be), and ironically no amount of money can purchase back what we gave up -- a sense of purpose, respect, community, etc.
A friend once asked "What would be your ideal job if you had F-you money?" and my answer was "The field wouldn't matter that much, just a job where I had coworkers who genuinely liked and respected each other and cared about what we did." He couldn't understand me and kept repeating "No what field though, if you could choose?"
The job in the story is a stand-in for "an abusive job". The point isn't to ask the reader whether or not they'd take it, the point is that it is abusive and pointless. Like, it's not posing the question "would you take this job?" It's asking you to consider the life of someone whose job is, a priori, abusive and meaningless.
It's pretty important to add that there was a latent distress in this person all along, with a big dose of untreated mental health issues.
The protagonist mentions that their previous jobs gave the same anxiety and pointlessness. (The previous boss that was bombarding them with tickets, emails, etc. seems like a stand-in for typical micromanagers who don't respect boundaries. And the protagonist was obviously bad at saying no and standing up for themselves, etc.)
No, I'd do that in a heartbeat. There are so many things I want to do, try, read, or learn, and yet I will never have the time, because I have to work. A high end salary for a minute of pain is so much better than what I currently have to do that it's ridiculous.
Still fantastic writing, though. Just personally can't relate.
But in fact the punch is a metaphore for the feeling you can have each day that you get a glimpse of your boss, who does not care about you and provides you with busy work. And that feeling sticks the rest of the day. The try, read learn easily gets changed for staring at the tail of a dead squirrel, or at a thrashcan for that matter.
It wasn't just a minute of work though. The manager scheduled happy hours, in the office bar no less. There was an expectation that he had to be there. While the main character skipped several of these, he was nudged by Chris, the manager, to attend a coworker's farewell party. Given that the main character ultimately got PIPed for dodging a punch, it's assumed that he would get scolded somehow for not going.
> Just personally can't relate.
I would have thought the same about 10 years ago, and then ... life got interesting.
I was always going around with at least a book! How bad a punch is after all? Is it worse than tripping and falling with skis? And we still want to ski more almost immediately, right? Just work out a bit, get some protective layer, try to come up with some sustainability strategy with Chris so he doesn't punch in the same place all the time, and let's go!
... and now I can relate a lot more to the character. But after many years I read a book this year! (I mean other than this ~150 page short story. :D)
Mental health shit is insidious.
Yeah, but I'd be spending hours a day training my body to be a finely-tuned fighting machine, ready to evade any damage if I chose to quit before the day's beating.
Until I could improve my situation, every day I'd look him square in the eye with a fierceness that says:
Then I'd start hanging out a bit, learning what I could.Once I bump into Chris's boss, it will just be a matter of leverage, as is the nature of all tactical domination.
Then one day Chris will show up,
and be escorted by security
into my new office,
I mean, his old office.
I'll crack my knuckles and tell him to have a seat.
I think I'll keep that ugly-ass sweater as a trophy. It can hang on the office wall. A reminder.You might thrive there.
There are definitely people that thrive in such environments (like Chris).
FWIW, it's an office workplace, not MMA, so one shouldn't need to be a "finely-tuned fighting machine" to do the job.
Perhaps one can extrapolate that the author is hinting at another dark truth -- the higher up you go in the hierarchy, the more MMA-like this will be. Therefore CEOs are, by definition, distilled psychopaths (like the Felon and the Husk in the White House right now).
> You might thrive there.
Nah, I'm too easy-going for that bs. I'm a thinker, a problem-solver, but I was an athlete who trained myself pretty hard for nearly a decade of American folk-style wrestling.
My thought-train started with simply being able to be able to take the daily bunch, then my imagination just ran wild, like the excellent author of the original post. Combine that with the fact that "Chris" was obviously a psychopath, I went towards figuring out how he could learn why he chose the wrong path -- learn as gently as possible. And, as someone who has watched a lot of MMA over the years, I understand that training the entire body for combat would require more than just a shitton of situps, so the story just kind of just followed the original story's inspiration, as per my life experience.
> Perhaps one can extrapolate that the author is hinting at another dark truth -- the higher up you go in the hierarchy, the more MMA-like this will be. Therefore CEOs are, by definition, distilled psychopaths (like the Felon and the Husk in the White House right now).
Hinting or not, he paints a disturbing-enough picture of the such narcissists and their choices to not give a shit how people suffer as a result of their decisions.
If you want to learn a true story that is far, far worse, read David W. Blight's Pullitzer Prize winning 2019ish biography of Frederick Douglass. The audiobook was available as a free download from a reputable site (I forget), and my two teenagers and I listened 4-6 hours/day for 2.5 weeks (weekends off) until we made it through the entire 900+ page book. FD was an extraordinary human being who led an extraordinary life.
As a result, my kids understand the cruelty of the wealthy as best as one can without having actually gone through it themselves.
We are actually also pretty knowledgeable about WWII history (via Stephen E. Ambrose's unabridged audiobooks D-Day, Citizen Soldier, and Band of Brothers) so we are also aware of what our German kin are capable of, as are all human beings.
Peace be with you, friend.
"We gonna be alright." --Kendrick
I love these interactions on this site.
Peace to you as well, and to your family!
I mean, this was the point of the story! Doing a minute of work for way more pay sounds great, _but you're still getting punched in the stomach_. The main character actually thought about how people who are more physically able to withstand getting punched in the stomach daily would fare better at this job...as he was readying to be punched.
This might be one of the most beautiful, terrifying, and accurate takes on modern corporate life that I've read. I typically don't read things that are long-form if it's not in a physical book, but I found I couldn't stop even though I felt existential dread the entire time. This almost directly replicated some of my life experiences in my career, and I have the GERD (mis)diagnosis to show for it.
Wow, this is a long read but hits extremely close to home. I think anyone who has experienced this kind of burnout can relate - I can relate to so much of it, more than I'd like to write publicly.
I'm lucky to have a job where although my main value is tolerating a lot of disrespect and pointless abuse, I value my colleagues a lot and enjoy working with them, and my job/product/company is doing something meaningful, which offsets it quite a lot. I've also been in roles where that hasn't been true and the oppressiveness after a while is hard to put into words - particularly people like the unsympathetic bad-advice relative that thinks anyone that makes what you make shouldn't be miserable at all.
The first time I noticed I was burning out like this, at an old miserable job, was there was a part of my commute I'd been taking for 10+ years where a few weeks in February, the morning sunrise will shine in a particular way at an intersection I noticed. Then, one year, I noticed this again and in my head I was like "oh, it's February again" and kind of uneasily noted that it had only felt like a few months, not an entire year - and then the next year it happened, was even more unsettling - huge chunks of time I couldn't really piece together clearly in between the two years. The year after I got a little bit better of a job and had recovered from burnout, the "February sunlight" phenomenon stopped. It now feels like a full year in between noticing this, if I notice at all, and I'm grateful for that very small and weird win.
All I will say is, never work in compliance. You never have enough data or the data you need, because compliance is very important, but never as important as the actual job.
It's a brilliant story. I read it end to end, can empathize. Thank you for writing it.
Completely agree. +1. Very well written. Felt like a Black Mirror episode.
At times my career over the decades has felt like this.
I thought several times I wish Ben Stiller would direct an episode on a TV show somewhere about this. Like the author, he can blend grounded realism and comedy in his unique, transcendent way.
I think the stomach punching is much more creatively articulated on Severance. All of those severed workers are getting metaphorically punched in the gut constantly, so much so that they need to be severed to do the job at hand.
> I read it end to end
That's impressive, this post was massive
TikTok user?
Proudly no
edit: this post has almost 26,000 words in it I am extremely skeptical someone reads it in its entirety I'm not sure how long that would take
I read the entire thing, it took about an hour give or take.
Why do you find that hard to believe?
it's a lot of words, I mostly engage on HN articles from other people's comments but yeah I get it, I read books but I don't spend an entire hour on a blog post someone posts. everybody has their own values I get that
I read the entire thing in one sitting. I think I assumed it was just a normal blog-post length and the scroll bar at the side was so small because the bottom had a bunch of photos or more articles or something. The story was engaging, so I just continued reading.
You're saying you come here to participate in discussions about articles you can't be bothered to read in the first place? Isn't that a little bit disingenuous?
It would be interesting if you asked random people if they'd like to sit down and read something for 45mins how many people would accept.
I obviously looked at this one and was like "nah" seeing the size of the scroll bar and I copied/pasted the words into a counter to get that 26K figure.
Anyway it doesn't matter there's nothing to win here. I'm pointing out this post is long as hell and I'm not gonna spend my time reading it.
It also probably speaks of my caliber as a tech person I have not been in a FAANG job before probably won't be, I'm just lucky to have picked this field up later in life and can get a job in it but I'm nobody noteworthy.
> It would be interesting if you asked random people if they'd like to sit down and read something for 45mins how many people would accept.
I wouldn't expect many to do so, but I absolutely wouldn't expect people who declined to do the reading to stick around for the post-reading discussion.
I did read it in its entirety, it took about 45 minutes. I found it pretty engaging.
It was about a 30 minute read. I'd suggest that you have a short attention span and are easily distracted.
That or I don't care about the subject read it
I don't care about 99.99% of Twitter posts enough to read them, but I'd certainly not call them "massive" -- in fact, much of my lack of interest in microblog posts comes from them being far too short to convey any ideas of substance.
Consider that you might indeed have a short attention span, and that there might be a lot of insights and concepts that you may be missing out on due to unwillingness to engage with long-form writing.
That's all fine. I am not a fast reader and spent 40 minutes before my spouse entered. I saw I was only at 3 quarters, that's more than where I get at in the average book I read, so still super engaging! Probably already spent the same amount on reading comments.
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It was about an hour for me, although I admittedly read it while fixing and munching on my lunch. It was very relatable, and so I felt motivated to see the protagonist to the end, whatever their fate- see if they derived alternate insights than the ones I had arrived at.
I've spent longer reading documentation late at night that ultimately would turn out to be useless to me. This actually had some plausibility of real life utility, but requires "experiencing" to derive useful benefit from.
I think I just punched myself in the stomach again.
It's a slow day, maybe took 1-2 hours. I only skimmed a bit of the end because of the excessive introspection, but otherwise a pleasant read.
it took me 20 minutes. it was a pretty easy read. i didn't think i was a fast reader ... but gemini tells me otherwise.
people read entire books you know.
i ran the text through a grade level calculator and it came out as 8th grade level, which i understand is typical for a mainstream newspaper. i guess that's why it was such a quick read.
I spent double that time and was only about 3 quarters. The read is indeed easy but the word count is much more than your average HN posted article.
Firefox reader mode estimates 132-168 minutes
I read it in two sittings, because it was getting waaay too late to finish it yesterday.
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> Chris has never once capitalized anything in any written medium. You find his commitment to the style somewhat impressive, given how difficult this is to do in our current era of predictive text and auto-correction. There was a time when you yourself typed everything that way, but the difference is that you were fourteen years old and trying to be “edgy” while writing comments on a fan-run message board about The Simpsons, and he is a supervising manager at a multinational corporation.
The TV show Severance shows the modern job and office dynamic very well.
As I read the story, I thought it would look great as a Ben Stiller-directed show or episode, maybe Black Mirror or a similar anthology.
If you like Severance's grounded absurdity, you might also like the film Corner Office with Jon Hamm.
I can never look at Wellness benefits the same again.
For someone who spent his whole career on camera, Stiller and company absolutely nailed every minute aspect office culture.
Second season is getting a bit redicoulous. But maybe it is just me.
This hits so many feels, and so... effectively. The corporate speak. The callousness. The vapid emptiness. The confusion.
The confusion - that this thing that seems like it should be excellent, isn't, and is in fact damaging - that's a sign of gaslighting, of being convinced to ignore or dismiss your own sense of reality.
When we're in these situations, we do know something's wrong, but we doubt; that it's wrong enough, that the wrongness matters, that the wrongness is worthwhile.
When you know it's wrong enough, you quit. When you know the wrongness is worthwhile, you don't have the dazed malaise. When you doubt your sense of reality, the reality you sense... crumbles.
I remember one time saying to a coworker : something is wrong. Only after I left for a place with a more 'normal' boss, I realized just how wrong it had been.
I recognized the lyrics at the beginning right away. The song is reel big fish’s say goodbye which has some other relevant lyrics
> I know, you feel like a whore Working for a dream that isn't even yours Pleasing everybody but yourself Would you rather be, somewhere else with someone else?
When casually-inflicted trauma and indifference to using you effectively, let alone your needs as a human being, are a constant, while other responsibilities come and go and are taken less seriously, it feels like the core of the job.
Working a soul-sucking but cushy corporate job is not trauma.
It's duck-typed
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Bold move to put this next to one's resume.
I raise you { Chris's resume, a stack of photocopies of my ass, and another of Chris's resumes }.
I feel like I just read The Catcher In the Rye, but for middle aged developers. It was fantastic.
What a metaphor. Beautifully written.
This article reminds me of a tidbit about the VOC (Dutch East India Company):
"There was an extraordinarily high mortality rate among employees of the VOC due to shipwrecks, illnesses such as scurvy and dysentery, and clashes with rival trading companies and pirates. The VOC 'consumed' approximately 4,000 people per year." [1]
[1] Zanden (1993) The rise and decline of Holland's economy : merchant capitalism and the labour market
I couldn't finish reading this because of the intimately familiar existential nausea it induces, so I scrolled rapidly through it only stopping to observe that it touches on both psychiatry and unemployment in ways that made me glad I hadn't continued reading.
Frankly, this should be mandatory reading for everyone I've ever worked for.
Edit: Yeah, wow, this is more depressing than Ted Chiang's Exhalation[1].
For more in this vein, but with an erotic cyberpunk theme, play the interactive novel Secretary[2].
Edit 2: Perhaps the antidote to this malaise is a re-read of Hexing the Technical Interview[3].
1. https://www.lightspeedmagazine.com/fiction/exhalation/
2. https://www.secretarygame.com/
3. https://aphyr.com/posts/341-hexing-the-technical-interview
absolutely did not expect to run across secretary on hn. although I'm not sure that was supposed to be a horror game as such
Yes, I've shocked myself by referencing it, but if it's not your fetish, it is blackmail, abuse, and non-consensual body modification. It's somebody's literal nightmare.
“The seat at the head of the table remains undisturbed, perhaps reserved for Business Elijah.“
What a reference! Probably my favorite line of the story.
I’ve never been good with twiddling my fingers at work. It’s a strange anxiety when you see others go, “yeah, I’m fine with this.”
Related:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frank_Richards_(performer)
I'd recommend anyone who liked the "perspective character experiencing mental illness" aspects of this check out Atwood's Surfacing.
Anyone else feel that they cannot relate to the premise of this essay in any way?
I mean I'd rather be on a road trip with my kids, but my work is generally pleasant outside infrequent periods of high stress.
Lots of the details hit for me (the lifelong habits from marching band, moments alone of feeling a little actually-crazy, being terrible at remembering names well past the point where you feel like you should have gotten good at that, the conference room lights shutting off and awkwardly standing to make them come back on, trying not to look as idle and bored as you are).
It's mostly about big-corp life, though—my time with startups and little agencies and such didn't much resemble this, day to day, but still had some of that "why the fuck are people paying me to do this?" factor, like having finished projects cancelled without ever being released due to corporate politics or because it turns out a client was only paying us build a product as a BATNA for some acquisition negotiation and they weren't really planning on using it except as a bargaining chip, or having clients (or your own startup leaders...) assign you projects that you're 100% certain are a bad idea that's never going anywhere (and sure enough, you get it done, and it flops, for exactly the reasons you could have told them it would on day 1).
Like, 80+% of the work I've ever been paid to do has been kinda pointless except to drive the gears on some abstract large-scale money-making machine that randomly sometimes produces returns but mostly just makes everyone do a bunch of work that at least someone involved already knows isn't valuable, at least not for any straightforward reasons, but everyone has to do anyway to keep the gears turning.
Feeling lost in a large org, the awkwardness of being new at a large office and of kinda clinging to the very-few people whose names you can remember, being told you're doing well and being paid great while kinda feeling like you're just coasting along and money's showing up in your account for no good reason and because that's just how your stumbling-through-life path has worked out, for whatever reason, but why should that continue for another day and OMG what will I do if people figure out they could just not do a bunch of this stuff and nothing bad would happen and they'd save money and I'd be out of a job and what else do I even know how to do and is this current too-easy gig making me soft and messing me up for future employment (but they're all kinda like that...)—very relatable.
I suppose I was reacting mostly to the "my job is so bad it is akin to being physically assaulted"
It is interesting to hear how your perspective resonates with the essay, I was mostly wondering how universal that resonance is.
Working at Microsoft, my final task was to write a monitoring and keepalive subsystem for an API that aggregated monitoring dashboards.
This is absolutely how that feels. With the exception of my boss reneging on promised expenses and the magical realism elements: I came in, did scrum, said everything was fine, then fucked around on factorio because I could be interrupted at any time, with a 5 minute SLA target, but often days passed between these events. Don’t worry, I had tons of recommendation panels to advise on steering committees to sit silently on. It’s… it’s this, you have nothing to do and all the time to do it in, paid (in my case) primarily to not work somewhere else.
I never even learned the names of the products the dashboards monitored.
I think that's more metaphorical—unpleasant but easy, unclear what benefit it's providing, somehow leaves you out-of-sorts the whole week so the days slip away even though, when you look at it, there's not good reason for that (making you feel even worse). And getting punched is bad, but is it that bad? Just one punch a day, and in the stomach? It's degrading, but what isn't, and it's not like they're making you feel bad about it, it's just how things are. And the pay is so good. Subjectively you're miserable but objectively you shouldn't be, which makes you more miserable.
Meanwhile you feel like an imposter, but everything else the others are doing also looks kinda-fake but you're never quite sure if it is and everyone else is just playing along, or if you're the odd man out and just don't get why all that stuff is useful because you're too dumb, and are just lucky nobody's yet noticed that you're not doing anything useful.
Right -- I mean the misery at work is what I cannot relate to.
Furthermore, if the best way to support my family and to live my non-professional life is to take a punch in the stomach each morning, I think I'd find a way to deal with it?
Yeah, the counter-point to this is something like Yates' Revolutionary Road—you're not as special as you think, you definitely don't have the ambition to back up the way you think your life should look and probably not enough to make anything of it even if you were dropped into that situation for free, most of your misery is because you think you should have something else, and hey, look around—of course you don't like your job, that's the deal, and the more "nice life" you want the less you'll like it, and that accidental-success you're seeing there without even trying is something you should be leaning into rather than being repulsed by.
In short, being a little clever just means you can live normal life on easy mode and you shouldn't feel bad about that, and wanting something more meaningful or glamorous or romantic without actively putting in the work to make that happen and accepting the sacrifices that come with it is just you making yourself miserable for no good reason.
(And of course if you're in the throes of that sort of a mood, being familiar with the above perspective just makes it worse, even as it offers a way out to acceptance of a life as an ordinary schlub who doesn't have things too hard, LOL)
[EDIT] I'm nearing the end and I think, to this piece's credit, some of this criticism of the perspective character's ("your") mindset is present as both text and subtext, plus a good deal of the darker thoughts and moments we're clearly to take as the output of a mind that's unwell and trying to square external reality, perceived un-reality of their situation, a certain awareness of their own privilege, plus the inescapable fact that they simply are not doing OK and are aware that they aren't and also aware that they should be and everyone else seems to be—rather than taking them as something the author intends for us to take as big-T or objectively True just because the perspective character is presenting these thoughts to us.
Exactly what I feel about my current job.
I'm sure it's not universal, but I bet a lot of HN readers have at least had one job in the past where they were 1. paid very well, but 2. their day-to-day of work felt metaphorically like a daily punch in the stomach. I certainly have, and it took me 4 years (the full stock vesting period, LOL) to break away from it.
Lots of people (including me) have gotten burnt out from a job that should be a dream job, yet somehow manages to inflict so much mental pain that you have trouble getting up from bed.
I don’t resonate with the “my job is bullshit” parts of the story, but I feel like the story does an excellent job of describing how burnout feels. Each day is physically painful and it starts taking an increasing toll both physically and mentally to show up to work.
Yeah, I'm with you on that. I'm in a profession that I chose because I was interested in it and I'm at an employer I chose because I was interested in what they do.
Yeah, I had the same reaction.
There are well paid corporate jobs that feel like a punch in the stomach every day. Luckily they did not cross your path. It can happen very quickly though, for example the company you work for gets bought by another one with different company culture or simply your boss got switched to a narcissist.
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This is easily my favorite read of this year
The protagonist had read a detailed job description, had had a call with the recruiter, then an 180 minute interview marathon that ostensibly went absolutely stellar, then another one-to-one interview with Chris - and only at the very end of it all he gets to know that the position is actually about nothing else than being punched in the gut.
Not sure if plot hole or even deeper metaphor.
You never had a job like this I guess. They hire someone with a particular set of skills because it makes some metric somewhere look right, and then they use you for something that uses none of those skills, at all. The weird part is that they even put the real job in the listing.
I don't see a plot hole, it is just a twist that can happen in real life. You thought you landed the dreamjob after which you learnt that the interview was a big charade for a busywork job to keep up the pseudo statistics/metrics of a narcissistic boss.
isn't it about worthless leetcode interviews?
Honoré de Balzac has a great bit about cashiers in Melmoth reconciled, basically explaining that it's a useless job that stems from a lack of trust (meanwhile the cashier becomes a trustee, which is ironic as if he had ambition he could just leave with the money). I have no idea how good the english translation is, but there's much better literature about bullshit jobs than this.
Ambition may be cut short by a stay with a chain gang and a yellow passport
I did not expect to spend two hours reading a novella submarined into blog post as I was going to bed, but by God, it was totally worth it. This beautifully captured what some of my jobs felt like. Well, well done.
This was an excellent read. Thank you.
Professional boxers, MMA fighters etc must get punched in the stomach most days they train and by experts. I would think getting punched every day by an amateur would be survivable.
And for some unfortunates, this is their school life.
I did landscaping in Atlanta with the business owner, whose college-attending son and friends would sometimes fight each other for fun.
"Good Sir, I must politely decline your generous invitation."
this sentence caught me..
> None of what you’ve been saying to people over the course of your career has been a joke.
But seems, most did take it as such.. or pretended..
> as you mentally replayed your time at the company.
and this one.. still hurts.
The guy was piped for dodging the abuse once, but what's more impressive is that it really does happen.
A lot (most ?) people do jobs they don't enjoy to make ends meet, figuratively punched in the stomach yet without the luxury of being highly paid.
The author calls this out too.
> relieving about the days when he wasn’t physically right there. He still spewed emails and instant messages and ticket comments and video calls, but the physical distance was, you know, nice.
> You notice, not even a month into this engagement, that you resent the regularity with which you are forced to interact with your supervisor.
This is very relatable for some reason. I don't hate anyone I work with, but them being physically gone sends a wave of relief over me. Even if it's just for 15 minutes, being in an empty room with no one around really helps me focus and reduces stress.
I don't understand what this is supposed to be a metaphor for.
Bullshit / Pointless jobs ? Most are definitely not physically demanding. Meanwhile, our devices run on metals mined by 12 year old kids.
Toxic bosses ? They probably don't act in the open. And they don't pay well.
Lack of workplace regulation ? Your continent democratically decided that workplace regulations were bad, so it should be a "gleeful" metaphor ?
Bad job market ? Then the guy would be accepting a job where he gets punched AND badly paid. But that's not metaphorical: that's a lot of real life jobs.
So I'm missing something here.
Perhaps your work experience hasn't been VC funded tech firms with inexperienced managers and cargo cult dev processes.
Especially you need to be able to understand the main bit about not needing to do anything at all after daily standup, err I mean punch in the stomach. (because likely the work will be thrown away soon, or the company will pivot.) and then the pre-climax (there's a name for this in plot development but I don't know it), the perf review. and finally the firing. The unnamed peers used as an excuse for a single instance of not being a team player, ie not participating in a nonsense ritual. It is indeed fatal for such firms, so to that degree the firing was a correct action.
To me this is a story about big-A Agile as a disease. But there are other meanings (side messages?) that can be taken away.
Well I worked at VC funded firms, and we were sorta doing agile, and there were stand-ups that lasted 15m, and before and after the stand-ups, work happened, in the form of writing software that we then sold to paying customers.
And, yeah, not all meetings were the best use of our time, it's better to write things down, it's tricky to find out which software to write and which to throw away, we got things wrong lots of time, we wrote legacy code for ourselves, etc...
But "being punched in the stomach and then spend your day doing nothing" was not part of it.
But I guess "burning books" is not yet a thing in the USA, and yet "Farenheit 451" is still a good metaphor of "something" ?
I've never been confortable with the literary genre of "let's slide through the slippery slopes and imagine unrealistic worst case scenarios to sound smart and not really make a case about anything cause fiction".
Book burning is very much a thing there. You don't need fires to burn books.
For being some type of metaphor for life, that the character's spouse was only mentioned a handful of times in passing was decidedly odd.
That was my biggest criticism. Maybe I could have suspended my disbelief back when I was single, but now I'm thinking "my wife would be holding an intervention for me after the first day, if not sooner".
It was a bit odd. On the other hand, this story felt very close to what I feel about my job now and someone here wrote that I am probably depressed. Does my wife know? I think she subconsciously feels that I am not entirelly OK, but I just occasionally complain. That's it. I do not talk about that's stuff much. I do not talk about my thoughts to anyone really. I just have a feeling that nobody would understand. 'You are working at home for five times the pay I am making at factory and you complain?!'. People here complaining that the story was too long and you are complaining that you are still can't relate. This whole wall of text was not enough for you to understand. How me - who is not that eloquent - could explain what I feel inside to someone that I am hanging out once every few months? 'But your wife would understand if you spend five hours to explain.' Or she would just be annoyed to listen to the same stuff, me complaining about my job again. I am tired of me complaining about my job, others would be too.
I essance, it is kind of bizarre and more felt as breaking of the third wall, a wink to the reader, but it is not something that I can't understand. Many man going through stuff like that alone, when asked if everything is fine, for sure they will tell 'its fine' and than decide to kill themselves.
I actually didn't find this odd. I'm child-free, but one thing I've often read about/seen is how life just...disappears...once you have kids. Your time is either consumed by stomach punching, kids, or chores with very little left over.
It's possible that his spouse didn't even notice that he was slowly losing it. It's possible that his spouse _doesn't even know_ that he gets punched in the stomach for work.
That was puzzling for me also...
This reads like a more realistic version of leisuretown.com "Q.A. Confidential".
This is awesome. A reminder why I avoid working in the corporate world - or even full time.
This is art.
"I think it's important to pursue cross training opportunities for 'hit by a bus" situations and for organic, cross-pollinated efficiency. At least twice a week we should rotate puncher or punchee. Tuesdays I'll punch you, and Fridays we'll have Diane punch me. Besides, it'll keep your knuckles from getting too sore and it'll free up time on your end of week schedule to get those reports in".
This made my brain hurt. And not in a good way
Huh. I work on the 17th floor.
Can you please restock the Dr Pepper already?
that's funny, i just got out of the hospital for a case of dysphagia that turned into a perforated esophagus. small world!
Quite entertaining but could use an editor. Went as expected but the value is in being able to relate.
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I've spent time with several schizophrenics, and this is infinitely more coherent. I envy your inability to digest it.
> The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. — H. P. Lovecraft
Edit: Apologies; I forgot that my mind's ear had edited out the first section entirely. Skip it.
Sorry I'm not a native speaker, the way it's written makes my mind itch and want to do something else, and I can read a lot of dense crap.
But it's starts from nowhere, without context, is this fiction? Opinion? AI rambling? Why should I keep reading?
1) Yeah, it's fiction.
2) It's written a little "higher" than modern popular young-adult-influenced fiction, mostly in that it sets up tension where the reader shouldn't know what's going on, then resolves it somewhat later, and relies on the reader holding context for a sentence or two for a thought or idea or image to resolve. This used to how books even fifth graders were expected to read were written (i.e. this wouldn't have been regarded as challenging) but extreme preferences for ease-of-reading has driven shifts in fashions (as publishers desperately seek a market in a world where readership is already very low and still declining) and now lots of folks find once-easy works of fiction "hard" (even, and perhaps especially, native speakers) simply due to rarely encountering fiction that's not, as it were, pre-chewed, so not exercising those reading skills.
3) It's written in second-person, which is a bit unusual. (First-person also used to be rare, but has become common because young readers find it easier, and it is now taking over popular fiction—I expect narrative perspectives other than first-person are the next thing that will be regarded as "difficult" by the folks just becoming adults now, and know for a fact that many current teens and tweens are expressing that to teachers, that they find reading narratives in 3rd person difficult and so mostly just... don't read those)
[EDIT] I'm not asserting that 2 or 3 are the reasons you specifically are having trouble with it, but pointing out a couple observations about it that might be reasons someone would have trouble with it. There could be others.
Well put. And second person is indeed unusual, to the point where it was quickly obvious that it wasn't some sort of LLM.
It's kind of fascinating, when I think about it. This artwork does something I've also seen the GenX novelist Douglas Coupland do to striking effect: set up a vicarious mental state, through seemingly tedious narrative, to produce a state of mind which is then played upon for artistic purposes, modulating this state of mind to cause feelings.
Coupland repeatedly does that by setting up thematic points without stating them, and then resolving not the surface details but the theme with a conclusion that targets the theme rather than the surface plot.
The author here plays on the theme of meaninglessness, and then more or less makes a plea for meaningfulness at the end. It's pretty straightforward, except there seem to be a lot of people unable to experience a narrative at all, and so they're looking for 'the answer' and unable to experience the narrative in a human way. (not that you're required to have this particular human experience… but the whole point is to have this described experience, without having it)
Pretty sure anybody who's frustrated by this would have an even harder time with Douglas Coupland's biggest works. This is really direct, theme-wise. If that's not enough to get you onboard (assuming you want to take that ride), there's a problem.
If large numbers of people in the post-LLM world end up unable to decode these sorts of artworks, that's a loss to human nature.
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Pity the rest of us who have to live in the world they make!
Your point #3 is concerning. It is almost saying that people are now unable to assume other peoples' points of view. That the skill of empathy -- in a narrow technical sense, not even loading it with positive moral associations; hell, a scammer may use their ability to take another vantage point in order to mislead -- is disappearing. That people are losing a "theory of mind". Mass solipsism. Excellent, autistic sheep, confused by the people around them.
I think it's more just saying that second person narrative is not common and so it tends to throw people off. Not that your points aren't necessarily valid, but I don't think you can get all the way there just off of second person being an uncommon literary perspective.
I'd assume FooBarBizBazz meant my aside about the rise of the (once also fairly rare, if not so rare as second) first person narrative perspective in fiction, and increasing discomfort and difficulty with the 3rd person among younger readers. I'm not sure I'd assume this coincides with a decline in empathy, but do think it's worrisome that a huge body of literature, even recent literature, is harder for these folks to access than it was for those who grew up with 3rd person as the default and anything else being a notable stylistic choice.
It's fiction in the "second person" perspective, and you should keep reading until you can empathize with the protagonist, purely because it will help you recognize abuse and/or the trappings of professionalism which cause and/or accommodate abuse.
If you aren't a native English speaker, it makes sense you would struggle with this - it requires advanced reading comprehension. It's an essay from a first-person perspective that describes the author's feeling of existential dread from corporate make-work roles. It's written in a way that suggests the writer has worked in big-tech for a while.
It's written in second-person.
Good call. I am so unused to seeing that style, that I read it as first-person.
We are at the stage where most creative experienced persons with at least a year or savings (of their expenses) should look to a self-bootstrapped AI-assisted entrepreneurship instead of a job. AI changes the game to enhance the chances of entrepreneurial success. Also, when you are working for yourself, it doesn't really feel like work.
When you write truth to power, you get downvoted and suppressed!
Better yet, has someone figured out a way to use AI to punch people in the gut? That kind of optimization would be really great for velocity.
Leveraging continuous innovation, this individual would drive team and industry advancements towards scales of operational efficiency not seen before. Their visionary contributions will redefine AI integration, ensuring access to robust, strategic, gut-punching partnerships. What a team-player.
There's a couple problems causing this negative appraisal of your 'truth'.
Firstly, there's no reason to assume 'AI-assisted' will help you in any way. You might consider that by definition that places you in a position interchangeable with any other person or indeed running the AI by itself, without you.
Secondly, 'most' creative experienced persons? As someone who's successfully-ish done the thing you're talking about, WOOF. No. In fact, I would suggest based on my experience and perspective, that a person looking to rely on AI assistance is the last person who should attempt to be entrepreneurial.
I guess go ahead if you must? If it doesn't really feel like work, it probably isn't work. If it doesn't seem meaningful because it's just chasing what an AI tells you to do, it's probably not going to stick out with any competitive distinctiveness. And if you are only doing it for yourself, you should keep your day job because that's not enough to succeed at business.
If someone doesn't yet feel substantially empowered by AI, then they just don't know how to use it very well, and also lack the imagination to do so. It's a lot more than just asking ChatGPT.
AI is not a substitute for personal effort; it's a tool for going where one struggles to go alone.
For work to not feel like work, one has to be super passionate about the goal that one is working toward, and this is never possible at a job. Most people have forgotten what it means to have a personal passion, some of which can also manifest a commercial angle.
To make a long comment short, AI is the missing glue in ikigai that brings everything together.
If only this flavor of AI wasn't being used to substitute actual work and employment at large.
Oddly, right now I'm seeing a lot of federal workers in the US talking about how they've struggled for years to get into positions where the mission they serve is deeply important to them, so much so that they'd pass over private sector work and did just that.
Just at the small cost of your soul. For some this is a small price to pay, and for others, the cost is enormous. Will AI make fundimental differences in the way life works? Look at every single stoplight that is green while no cars are waiting.
Want to ask AI, that question?
Can someone post a summary? This is written in a way that’s really hard to read.
I am seeing this kind of comment more and more here and I think it's a trend I would like to see end. That's fine if you don't want to read a long, meandering essay. I myself made it about 30% through and decided I didn't want to finish. But why would you then expend the effort to come here and ask others to do work for you? Paste it into chatgpt and ask it to summarize for you.
I read the whole thing. It's a bit of a 'moralistic' ending, but I didn't have enough of a problem with it to find that a serious fault.
Unlike that comment about 'please summarize'. I'll fault that.
Here's the problem: this is an artwork. It's there to experience something, not intrinsically to deliver an answer or data point. It's to vicariously go on a journey without literally doing the thing. That's a purpose of artworks, and one that's completely wasted on LLMs as they cannot feel or experience or have a purpose: if they did they'd be fixed (or, I supposed, punched in the digital stomach)
Summary? You don't need an LLM for that, conserve the energy. The summary is 'The ideal candidate will be punched in the stomach. And that's bad'.
It's literally in the title. I read through to see if it was 'and that's bad' or, 'and that's good', or possibly 'and that's inevitable'. I like the author better for ending up at 'that's bad' with a little bow on the end to celebrate meaningfulness, but that's not the only possible conclusion, and other conclusions would be just as artistically valid.
Quitting 30% of the way through is just as valid. You don't HAVE to take the ride just because it exists. If you're curious, averng, it's an okay story, leads up to its ending pretty well and finishes with a hopeful note. That's most of what you missed.
The only NON-valid way to engage with it would be to point an LLM at it and say 'tell me what the point is, I'm busy' because that would be failing to take the ride without even comprehending that you're failing to do so.
Living life through ChatGPT is about as useful as getting punched in the stomach. Try reading the story or ignoring it completely. There is no summary that is not as meaningless as… well, you know :)
I mean, I agree. My point is just that if you can't be bothered to read the piece but have such an insatiable curiosity to know what it was about, then do us a favor and just dump it into an llm to scratch your itch.
I find two things to be distasteful: 1) Asking others to do the work you're uninterested in doing yourself and 2) the rejection of any kind of stylistic writing as an annoying distraction. I don't know if the person I was replying to is guilty of #2 but I've seen the sentiment a lot here and more frequently than I used to. Not everything is a technical manual that needs to convey its main ideas in as straightforward a way as possible.
This article is a work of art. And I don't mean that in the highfalutin sense. But the style is meant to evoke something just as much as the words themselves. It's fine if it that doesn't work for you, but the goal was not to convey as much meaning in as few words as possible.
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This isn't notably hard to read, though... and it's stylistically fairly plain and unadorned. Down-the-middle '80s-'00s era fiction style, for literary-leaning fiction that aspired nevertheless to sell some copies.
Please cite a passage from the story which is difficult to read.
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It isn't difficult to understand, it is difficult to get through. It is difficult in the sense that crawling through mud under barbed wire is difficult: exhausting because of its unpleasantness.
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This seems to have been written with the assumption that everyone will share the writer's understanding of why it's worth reading.
>the assumption that everyone will share the writer's understanding of why it's worth reading.
There is no "why it's worth reading". They write for enjoyment, and don't care if anyone reads it.
"I write this content because I want to, and because I enjoy it. If you do too, great! And if not, also great; I hope you find whatever it is you’re looking for elsewhere."
> There is no "why it's worth reading".
On the contrary--every individual reader gets to determine this. I found that it wasn't.
So you found it not worth your time to read the story, but found that it was worth your time to participate in discussions about it? That's certainly an interesting set of choices.
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Or, perhaps, the author wrote the piece to fulfill his own intrinsic motivations, and then published it on his website so that anyone who did happen to find it worth reading could do so, without necessarily expecting anything of "everyone".
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With the caveat that this is only possible with very lossy compression:
1. You land a software job which is "perfect" on almost every traditional indicator. Amazing office and amenities, incredible compensation and benefits, and no hard demands on your time... except to meekly endure some brief pain, for no particular reason, every day.
2. However it seems that neither the team nor yourself really accomplish anything, you gain no sense of social belonging, and you are literally a (very brief) punching-bag for your manager.
3. You "should" be happy, but you aren't. What's the point of it all? What are your values, and what is your worth? You start to struggle with depression. Eventually you can't take it anymore. You quit. Maybe you heal.
It's sort of like a Twilight Zone episode: You get (almost) everything you (believe that you) will be happy with, yet somehow the result is a subtle form of hell.
Maybe read some from the top, then some from the bottom. The person ultimately quit the job as was expected. The story is relatable.
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It’s a short story about corporate work and bullshit jobs, not an informative blog post. Either read it for your own enjoyment (or dread) or skip it, a summary doesn’t make much sense here.
+1 to everyone saying the style is really hard to read. The second-person narration is part of that; but for my money the biggest problem is that the author can't decide whether the story is being told in present tense or past tense. Pick a point of view and stick with it! Either you're telling the story as it happens (present tense), or you're telling it after it happens (past tense), but you shouldn't keep switching viewpoints with every sentence. Frequently this story switches viewpoints within the same sentence. And it's not done in anything like an intentional style; my default assumption when reading something that feels like bad fanfic is that the writer simply doesn't know any better.
"This job, it was you. Every sentence, every bullet point, they all described you [...] You fire off a copy of your résumé. [...] As each employee taps their badge, the turnstile emits a pleasant green [...] You were directed to the gate at the far end, which the receptionist opens manually [...] you are absolutely speechless [...] The only words that were polite but nonspecific enough to fill the absolutely dead air that now fills the room."
Turnstiles emit green pleasantly, as Noam Chomsky might once have said.
Style points for gratuitous misuse of the word "catachresis." (Autocatachresis?)
The shifting second-person perspective feels intentional to cause disorientation. The confusion makes the story feel like a mental illness, with thoughts jumping from the past to the future but rarely present in the moment.
Definitely seems intentional. The author generally uses past tense to reflect the mental state of the protagonist, and present tense to describe events as they unfold. I found nothing jarring about the tense switches.